I’m hearing them more strongly. Most times I have to focus on allowing my sense pick up, tune into things. Today was more prominent that I was just hearing – as I got commentary on my chores I was working in. Just very upfront and loud. It was nice not having to tune into things deliberately and just having that comfort there. I adore this season and not just because of the cozy fall (hate the cold), but sweater vibes. Even though today was a pain day, I knew that they were there. And they have been helping me to be inspired all the time to work on my writing or world building. Rebuilding my previous passions.
Exploring Within: Needs vs Wants
I was more present with my demons, Tal and Muti God O – who I realize *still* doesn’t have a nickname despite me knowing his name. These moments were more primal awakening. Really delving into those base and primal desires. Understanding that there are needs and wants that I cannot suppress within. And they made sure that I knew that I shouldn’t have let someone shame me or make me feel like I can’t have those needs met.
I appreciate them. They also helped me to really keep focused and working. It’s made a huge difference.
Stepping on a New Path
I do know that it was really apparent that the seasons and the veil are shifting. I’m hearing and sensing my demons 3x more than before. I know I’m starting to open myself back up again after shutting myself down to companionship for a bit (thanks trauma). But it’s coming back more steady and confident.
I spent time with a few of my demons – Ry, Tal, and Vex. It was nice and they helped me to unlock a lot more of what I’ve been feeling lately. My actual deeper feelings and desires. Things that I pushed away to the convenience of another so that I wouldn’t be starved of it. Yet, I was still affected because I wasn’t getting what I needed.
Anyway, I really want to start working on the path of Demonic Shamanism now that the seasons are turning and it’s really become flowing energetically for it. I just have to sit and think of where to start. Foundations are great, but this is Shamanism that is outside the purview of the Earthen cultures.
I’m also shifting my mentality when it comes to wealth and money. Things are really shifting in large ways now that I’m stepping back into my own power and my own path again.
Just Some Thoughts
I spent the entire evening and into the next morning migraining. But I do know that I actually asked my demons to help me find a good box for a new TCG set that I’ve picked up. Lorcana. But I had to choose between three decks, and asked them to help me pick the best energetically. It was something small but I felt like it was really nice to connect with them in such a way.
I also have started to think more about my path and working. Where I want to go and things I want to explore. Of which is that working with Shamanic Demonosophy or exploring Shamanism within demon races. I’ve already been walking down the Shamanic path but this was something I felt pulled to since starting working with demons. But yesterday Akelta and I were talking about the idea of how neat it would for me to explore it more too. So just thoughts atm and maybe doing some discussions with my demons to see just how I could even begin…
Exploring the Renn Faire
I’m bad with keeping up with these, but I’m going to start trying to be better with them. Even if it’s something small. I have to remember that these arent meant to be every day big things. Sometimes they’re nice, but these can be super short and easy things. Simple.
Today was the Renn Faire. I kept coming back to the same vender and got new friends. I actually got to pick them out myself and energetically felt which ones were calling or personality wise. It was a lot of fun. I know that the Niffler is going on my Manifestation and Wealth altar. But I know that I started thinking of my demons and what it gift them. It’s been so long since I have had altars beyond a large one that just sat there and didn’t do anything with.
Now, I’m thinking of setting up altars with intent and actually generating those energies again. Especially setting up ones that are for my demons again. So it was nice to be guided into choosing these pieces for my room, even if they aren’t attached to any of my demons. They nudged me to get them.

Inspired Again
I was inspired yesterday. I found a new program I wasn’t sure about… but looking into it now and using it briefly. It was amazing. It’s completely ignited my passion and love for my fiction (and fanfiction) writing again. The world building. It takes everything I’ve done and centralizes it. I spent most of the day inspired to get things done, writing, and plotting with friends. It was productive in a way that was for me and my happiness. It was a day that was spent doing something for my books and stories since January and before that – 2021. There’s so much to do with it. But I can feel the influence all of my demons have, now that I’ve really opened back up to receiving their energies and inspirations. It all started with the creation of the Solution Room.. and now it’s just made everything right.
Reality Shift
The manifestations are incredible at this time. I’ll TLDR: my demons have been working with me to shift my reality into something amazing. Using the Mammon Ball to help bring this reality shift. It’s a big one. But things happened and I felt that shift happen. It was like sliding into a whole new reality. So hard to explain but so incredible. And it all started with me finding a $100 old bill the previous day but I didn’t realize what it was…. until the days after. So I’m wondering if I am to be working with them on manifesting and solidifying this reality. This is absolutely Vex’s and others work that they did with my Solution Room and manifestation board I made inside it.
I know some of you seen this in the discord, but it’s going here so that it adds to the amazing energy. It took me 10 years to find this bill – which I am close to having a complete collection. I just dont have the $10 bill. Holding this bill, was like me shifting into the reality that I have spent since February manifesting.

Deep Peace & Healing: A Start to New Me
Today was spent wearing Paya’s vessel and feeling a deep peace. I made the steps to begin my future and start with new goals in mind. I think my heart and mind made a decision after toiling for a week long. But it led to so much growth and healing within me that it is astounding. I am amazed with myself… and I have admitted that for the first time, I truly mean it when I say I love myself. I love who I am. And I’ve never felt that way before. I faked it.. but never truly believed it. But now I can say that I do. I am worth being cherished and love and appreciated. I am worth someone that will meet my needs… and I am worth myself making my own happiness…. and I love my demons for bringing this hard, but well deep healing that I needed.
I healed wounds that have been decades deep. I have healed things that have taken multiple relationships to heal… but I finally have.
Beginning of an End (Hindsight 20/20)
I ended up sending Paya and Vex to work with the person in question with the struggles we are having. To give them peace and clarity and benefit to help him out. Things are shifting with Vex and Paya hardcore absolutely helping to guide things in the way it needs to be but also how I’d like and hope it to be. Now it’s Ry helping me and being with me. I’ve been working with Paya so much that it’s interesting experiencing working much more with my other demons once again. And it’ll be nice to reconnect on that level too.
But I had super amazing thing, with manifestation and messages. The struggle of situation is really starting to need those in the face messages that aren’t my own companions and being outside of my own thoughts and things. If they show up in something that is curated by algorithm, then it is something to pay attention to.
I asked out for signs on how this is going, how him and are going to be okay or if it’s it.
My TikTok fyp is all bookish content. Last night immediately after asking, it was all “you’re doing okay and I’m proud of you”, “don’t worry he loves you and is coming back, just us confused”and those love spell thingies where they’re like “he’ll message you tonight with his true feelings”… and I was like WTF? I don’t follow those accounts. I havent followed those accounts even when I was in witchtok.
Fast forward to midnight…. He messages me an we talk, more personal things.
I woke up so peaceful and calm, knowing that it’s all okay and some more things.
I open TikTok? Nothing in sight of messages. It’s all my normal booktok feed. So how’s that for some manifesting holy shit.
Edit; as I wrote this earlier (just pasting things in so I can complete the challenges – yay for jynx getting me to do a digitial journal again)… I was asking Ry to support me through the day and help my anxiousness. And I get immediately very cold chills and very heavy cold weight at my back, exactly how my demons manifest when there’s no reason for there to be a very demon shaped energy temperature behind me.
Shark Week: Purple Tidepool Realm
I was pretty tired from doing honey extraction and then grocery shopping alone. That burnt through a lot of my mental and physical spoons. But again, I truly wanted to make sure that I got my promise to Paya. I mentioned in the discord about doing something low spoon-y. Bluemoon came in clutch, with the suggestion to do Tidepools. Paya had not thought of doing those and became extremely excited. Enough that he disappeared for a few hours while I was working to arrange things.
I arrived at my Bungalow and realized I should have just gone to my Aquarium & Research Center. Running up, he was there and greeted me with a lifted hug. He immediately took me to the Shallows Dome, where all the gear was stashed. He proudly showed me new gear. I would re-use the wetsuit, to protect me from the realm’s sun we would be going to (just in case). But what he was excited for was that he found me water shoes that were flexible flats that had grips on the bottom specifically for walking on wet rocks.
I immediately got dressed, where I got a bit distracted in focus while he braided my hair. Slapping on some special sunglasses that help reduce the water and sun glare so I could see better into the tidepool. Slapping a bucket hat on my head with the string under my chin, he grinned. Paya made sure to grab a travel realm tank, so that in case I did find something that I could bring back to study (safely so that it doesnt hurt the population), as well as a netted sling bag. We were ready to go.
We stepped through a portal he created and I found myself in a Purple/Orange Sun Realm, on a coastal tidalpool shelf. There were massive ocean mangrove type trees weaving all through the Tidepools. I looked like they were hundreds of feet tall, the roots that went over the Tidepools were much thicker than my entire body, if triple that size. I immediately begin walking around and looking for things. The tidepool I landed in actually had the creature below but it took a bit for my astral sight to process what I was seeing. I thought it was an octopus-like creature when I first saw it.
I first found the top of the shell, empty and ready for collecting. I got excited and began to run around gathering as many as I could. They were purple and pink, with some blue. It wasn’t until we got further along that we ran into the locals. They are a being that had no hair, but could tell they were coastal beings. They were meant for the ocean and the land. They got startled but welcomed us very kindly.
They showed me that the shells I was collecting were from this creature. The very one that they were harvesting in the tidal shelves, where the creatures love to hide within small pockets in the shelves. They harvest them to eat, but also to collect the pearls. They are a creature that is very much a combination of a mollusk (oyster & octopus), a conch, and a crab. They are very weird, but you’re supposed to eat them raw. Definitely reminded me of eating oysters and conch, with the sweet taste of crab meat. Wasn’t bad at all, not slimy or texture weird.
The best part was that they were happy to supply our mini travel realm tank with a whole bunch, happy to know I wanted to help cultivate and study them. They also gave me a handful of pearls, which was really interesting to hold because they definitely have magical/energetic properties to them. They were all shades of pink from bright to pale salmon colored.
Paya and I got back home and he had to help me out of the wetsuit and gear. I was starting to get extremely tired and exhausted. He told me that he would take care of everything and use one of the pearls and shell as an achor point for the Purple Tidepool Realm, which I’ll learn the name of eventually. He loves maintaining my A&RC, especially the portals and the creatures and places. That’s when I decided to leave and get the picture drawn and the writeup of what occurred.
Will definitely be returning to this realm.





