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Connection Challenge Day 15: Paimon

I’m trying to fight through working with something wrong with my ears? I swear I turn my head and the words gets tipsy. But through that, I am feeling mentally like more is better. The first ASM today was super great conversation but reminded me that I’m working with Paimon this month. So first thing I really want to try to figure out is a crystal grid or some way to convert energy into creativity and motivation.

Therapy really let me release a lot of the stress that I had yesterday and it’s really cleared up my mental space where I am feeling motivated and inspired to write. I just suffer from Blank Page staring.

Until I can figure out the whole crystal grid AO3/Fanfic Curse to Creative Motivation… I am going to work with my demons and Paimon to build a whole Solution Room/Temple that is geared for just writing.

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Connection Challenge Day 14: Paimon

So today has been interesting in regards to my work. Last night, I lit my candle in hope that I could find some writing inspiration. Paimon was there but the energies just didn’t flow for creativity like I wanted. Eventually I just decided to sleep instead of pushing it.

I went to my therapy and ended up coming out feeling so much better. In doing so, I felt the surge of creativity and I spent the entire drive home thinking about how to adapt one of my other stories. It would be super easy to adapt it over to the LitRPG that my other story I developed with Paimon is. Now, it’s flowing in my head and I can see the changes. So while my offering last night was a kick to sleep, it worked out to help me open the energies today to really flow with creativity. Im pretty happy at the help.

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Connection Challenge Day 13

This month is focused on consistency. Doing something every day with spirituality. If I’m not feeling good, then taking the day to rest. To learn to take care of myself and to break old mental patterns that are harmful.

I offered some blood today to the demons officially since it’s so dry and cold that Im having nosebleeds super easily. Might as well give that as an offering so it isnt wasted. I did so an immediately felt a difference in my energy and inspiration. Things lessened and didn’t feel as overbearing in my head. I mentally felt like I can achieve things rather than the dread of doing it. That’s Ire, my Librarian. He’s stepped forward today to help with things.

I really have been working to get things moving with my writing but the energy levels are super low and I went to sleep and woke with a low fever. My body is definitely tired but I’ve asked for help with clearing this mental fog and negative vibration that makes me feel down. It’s helping. The demons help a lot when Im struggling the most. Im hoping to pick up energy levels once whatever ick if making me fevered.