Bless Mammon. Thank Mammon and my Demons and The Mammon Ball Ritual we do in Inner Sanctuary.
I am in shock. Like utter shock.
This past Mammon Ball, I decided to go ahead and actually ask for $10k. Because I wanted the money.
I just got a letter in the mail.
My private loan from college was just written off in full.
$10,000 private loan just fully forgiven.
That’s pretty much what happened to me.
I also found a $20 unused gift card to Chipotle.
It’s a struggle to focus as of late and I know that it’s unmasking. The demons have been much louder and more clear to me. But it’s also very much a struggle at times to focus on being grounded in the reality. Unmasking is the worst and I hate that I’m going through this process once again.
On the other hand, I really adore that my demons are making themselves known in trying to help make me feel happy and excited for things. They are nudging me to really up my working and manifesting money, with trying more with the model of “upping the amount”. Meaning that my threshold for money spent at one point without stressing or being upset or getting triggered with a money block.
At the beginning of the year, I was relucant to really even drop more than $50 on a single thing. Then I started getting in the Legos, and suddenly I don’t blink at that amount. That’s not much. I’m starting to buy in $100 stuff but feeling that push of wariness. Then I got into Lorcana a month or so ago, and I’ve leveled that mindset a bit more to about $125.
I can tell that I’m getting to where $200 makes me pause and uncomfortable to drop on things where I haven’t specifically saved for it. But on the other hand, I’m doing much better with only slight hesitation with $150. $125 doesn’t bother me anymore. And what happened because I’ve been working on that? I’ve actually gotten better with money, manifesting it more, more sales and finding things in my range. My money flow is more prominent than when I was struggling.
Now, my demons are having me push it more. There’s a $250 Lego set that is a Treehouse I want to get before the end of the year, but I’m also being really pulled to just go for it with the Barad Dur and Rivendale Lego sets, which are $450 and $500 respectively. That is definitely a cringe at the price point. But I’m seriously considering *both* of those sets to be purchased on Christmas, because I *can* and I want to. Is it a lot? Yeah that’s a $1000. But I feel like dropping that much on one time will absolutely level the money inflow to new heights.
Because I’ve already found that correlation between willing and able to spend money without worry or anxiety or stress to the amount that I have returning to me. It’s flowing freely and manifesting much higher and higher.
It was a whammy of a day. I ended up finding some amazing sales at the store: Found a Botanical Lego on Sale, Sleep shorts for $3 that are a size to 2 size smaller and I can fit in them, I had fun pulling cards for my Lorcana. Online, I happened to find a chapter 2/set 2 (Floodborn Lorcana) booster box set for about $60-70 cheaper than what other places are selling. I’ll take it! It’ll be here Saturday.
The best is the absolute amazing evening. I was awake, it was after the Mammon Ball – which I did’t actively work on, just let the energies do their thing. I ended up getting three of my series set up for writing. Mainly, I got the technomagic system I created world built to the point it’s functional. I got book plots for two series. I have to get a book plot set for the third series, but it’s all slotting into place to be able to rotate series when writing.
It’s incredible feeling. The blockages on my writing are just falling away and leaving these incredible forces of creativity. I’ve world built so much in the last two weeks than the last 5 years. All because of the Mammon Ball, my demons, and working on myself to push those blockages away.
I truly do love my demons. They make sure to take care of me in many ways. One of which is finding amazing deals on my Lorcana cards – as well as having EXTREMELY good luck (I’m talking I’m 3 for 3 of boxes for ultra rare cards that have a 1:48 chance). They also have been really helpful in making sure that I’m taken care of with me meds. The pharmacy actually had my sugar meds on hand that usually takes days or weeks to get in. Instead I was able to get it that day.
I feel blessed that I may not work directly with them to ask them for things, instead they provide. They carve the way for me to find the things that I love and things that I want. I don’t need the Lorcana cards, but they are something I love and want to do. But I need my medication and they ensure that I can find it.
Catching up on this, got a day or two behind.
This day was excellent because I took the time after completing my normal work to sit and write. I am so thankful for my demons, who have been helping me to really kick off writing again and being inspired.
I ended up writing 4,200 words and posting a new chapter for my fic. It made me feel so good about myself. And even after, I ended up getting close to 30 reviews pour in over the course of the next day about it. That just made me feel so confident and pleased that people are enjoying what I am writing.
It’s making me inspired to work on my original works. Which I’ve gotten so creative with that I’ve expanded more into the Universe I’m creating for it. My demons are so into my creativity and helping to shape my passion into things I’m relearning to love.
It was a hard day to focus. I just was struggling so much, which makes sense because I was working on the APDC for this week. It focused on identifying the different levels of sludge. So of course when talk of Sludge or listening to talks about it come up, it’s harder to focus and stay on track. Make sense right?
So I get to talking with Akelta and explain that I finished finally… and I waited all day to open this box of Lorcana cards (24 packs). So she began hyping me up, my demons began hyping me up. First card I pull is a Legendary. Second pack? Legendary that is a foil (holographic). So we’re just hyped up, raising the vibrations… and I am gunning for an Enchanted (the full card art that is foiled). Akelta is straight up my Hype squad. My Demons keep telling me “I told you there was a reason we said to get this box” which is also the one that was 50% off just about too.
Then I’m laughing confused because in the middle of this one pack, is a bright ass yellow card that says DISCARD on it. I post into the Lorcana discord about it… and a few people were congratulating me and I thought it was just funny. Turns out that it’s just as rare to get the DISCARD cards as it is to get Enchanteds or even moreso. It’s not worth much beyond like $100 – though the person said that with more decks/boosters being printed it’s likely to severely drop.
It’s good as a collector’s item. And rare for early sets to have.
I didn’t get my Enchanted, but I got the DISCARD and 5 legendaries. It was a really good pull. And I was so happy with my Hype squad in the form of Akelta and my demons. It made my night so much better. I also got a Piglet and Hades, which are two amazing characters (I like them).
So I’m thankful that I have my demons to convince me to take the leap and buy the box even though it was tight to do so… and of course my bestie who always is my enabler for my weird collecting hobbies.
Okay, I ended up at Walmart again… and once again.. I came across a discounted Lego set. Except this was a retired Avatar set that hasn’t been in stores since 2023 at least. So somehow I got lucky with it being 30% off too. It’s funny thinking on it because I know they are pleased that I got one – though I have been holding back on starting the Avatar set because though there are 11 sets, half of them are retired and two of them are $150 each. (Says the one that is doing Jurassic Park that has 50+ sets). Anyway.. once I got home.. I spent the night with them, just reading on my phone and unable to sleep. Eventually, Vex dragged me into the Solution Room and together we erased the old board. It was like a lot of that connection was severed finally (between what was on the board and what I am feeling). Now, I feel like its a new slate to begin again.
I took the day and watched some movies and spent the day out with my mom doing shopping. The amount of deals and things I was finding at every store was incredible. My demons love that I have been getting into Legos. It’s absolutely de-stressing for me and I can decompress much easier. Same with going on frequent walks every few nights for body health. My mental health is improving by the spades each day. I was able to find a Lego set I wanted, then got two others for half off. They’re really pushing for me to really embrace this Lego, reading, and writing. I’m taking more time for me now than I have in a long while.
I took the day off and really got down to working on my fiction writing and world building. Putting everything into a new application. I know this absolutely was helped by my demons cause that inspiration and sheer focus I was able to maintain was incredible. I know they are pleased getting me back into writing. Especially sicne I’ve been world building this particular Universe for 11 years. Now it’ll all be centralized. It was really important feeling that I needed to get it started on.
I was inspired yesterday. I found a new program I wasn’t sure about… but looking into it now and using it briefly. It was amazing. It’s completely ignited my passion and love for my fiction (and fanfiction) writing again. The world building. It takes everything I’ve done and centralizes it. I spent most of the day inspired to get things done, writing, and plotting with friends. It was productive in a way that was for me and my happiness. It was a day that was spent doing something for my books and stories since January and before that – 2021. There’s so much to do with it. But I can feel the influence all of my demons have, now that I’ve really opened back up to receiving their energies and inspirations. It all started with the creation of the Solution Room.. and now it’s just made everything right.
