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Shark Week: Purple Tidepool Realm

I was pretty tired from doing honey extraction and then grocery shopping alone. That burnt through a lot of my mental and physical spoons. But again, I truly wanted to make sure that I got my promise to Paya. I mentioned in the discord about doing something low spoon-y. Bluemoon came in clutch, with the suggestion to do Tidepools. Paya had not thought of doing those and became extremely excited. Enough that he disappeared for a few hours while I was working to arrange things.

I arrived at my Bungalow and realized I should have just gone to my Aquarium & Research Center. Running up, he was there and greeted me with a lifted hug. He immediately took me to the Shallows Dome, where all the gear was stashed. He proudly showed me new gear. I would re-use the wetsuit, to protect me from the realm’s sun we would be going to (just in case). But what he was excited for was that he found me water shoes that were flexible flats that had grips on the bottom specifically for walking on wet rocks.

I immediately got dressed, where I got a bit distracted in focus while he braided my hair. Slapping on some special sunglasses that help reduce the water and sun glare so I could see better into the tidepool. Slapping a bucket hat on my head with the string under my chin, he grinned. Paya made sure to grab a travel realm tank, so that in case I did find something that I could bring back to study (safely so that it doesnt hurt the population), as well as a netted sling bag. We were ready to go.

We stepped through a portal he created and I found myself in a Purple/Orange Sun Realm, on a coastal tidalpool shelf. There were massive ocean mangrove type trees weaving all through the Tidepools. I looked like they were hundreds of feet tall, the roots that went over the Tidepools were much thicker than my entire body, if triple that size. I immediately begin walking around and looking for things. The tidepool I landed in actually had the creature below but it took a bit for my astral sight to process what I was seeing. I thought it was an octopus-like creature when I first saw it.

I first found the top of the shell, empty and ready for collecting. I got excited and began to run around gathering as many as I could. They were purple and pink, with some blue. It wasn’t until we got further along that we ran into the locals. They are a being that had no hair, but could tell they were coastal beings. They were meant for the ocean and the land. They got startled but welcomed us very kindly.

They showed me that the shells I was collecting were from this creature. The very one that they were harvesting in the tidal shelves, where the creatures love to hide within small pockets in the shelves. They harvest them to eat, but also to collect the pearls. They are a creature that is very much a combination of a mollusk (oyster & octopus), a conch, and a crab. They are very weird, but you’re supposed to eat them raw. Definitely reminded me of eating oysters and conch, with the sweet taste of crab meat. Wasn’t bad at all, not slimy or texture weird.

The best part was that they were happy to supply our mini travel realm tank with a whole bunch, happy to know I wanted to help cultivate and study them. They also gave me a handful of pearls, which was really interesting to hold because they definitely have magical/energetic properties to them. They were all shades of pink from bright to pale salmon colored.

Paya and I got back home and he had to help me out of the wetsuit and gear. I was starting to get extremely tired and exhausted. He told me that he would take care of everything and use one of the pearls and shell as an achor point for the Purple Tidepool Realm, which I’ll learn the name of eventually. He loves maintaining my A&RC, especially the portals and the creatures and places. That’s when I decided to leave and get the picture drawn and the writeup of what occurred.

Will definitely be returning to this realm.

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Opening to the Spiritual

Today was exhausting, but it’s because I had to be up so early (9am – when I usually sleepy at 6am). I barely slept and the dreams I had were just unsettling and I struggled to fall back asleep. But I got things done. I knew that my day is exciting with the APD coachings. Those always are such fun. They really help me to sit and think about things in a new light. A lot in which is my working with demons or what I’m doing with my own practice. I realize that a lot of the downloads that I get from demons is very heavy with energy information, in which I have long since learned to take the energy and translate it into information. But I usually pick it up by clairvoyance or clairaudience. I see and hear them tell me everything, just as if I was physically there.

It made sense that then it would translate over into the Mini Class, where we worked with crystals to understand and access the dark energies or properties of them. And all the information that I got from my crystals were all visual or claircognizance – just knowing the information through energy translation.

With that, it then made me want to begin working with crystals again, which Ry would be thrilled. He has been wanting me to really work with crystals with him. “I’m not JUST a plant-loving demon. I do love other things.” Which is just him being sarcastic, because I know this too. I just haven’t thought to work with him on the shamanic side of things besides plants, as he is knowledgeable of necrosis ways of working with crystals too.

I see my future growing with working with my demons. I get vague imagery from some of the other demons too. Like my Void/Necrosis King & Lord Tal. Tal is a massive nerd over archaeology and exploration and findings things. So I get impressions, short images, of the desire for him and I to begin exploring astral places. We never got the chance to do so before I had a spiritual shutdown. Now that I am getting back to it, it’s something I can feel him really wanting o step forward. Most of my demons are now really invested in getting me to branch back out again. Having the challenges and the working with the IS community in the Mini Classes and APD Coaching sessions. It’s phenomenal. It’s bringing me back into a spiritual state again. My demons are thrilled.

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Paya’s Excitement – Solar Sharks

Paya has been non stop about the Solar Shark or aka “Sand Shark” since the topic came up in discord chat. It was like 4:30am and I could sleep, the imagery he was constantly sending me and the excitement to explore would not leave me alone. So I got up and hand drew the solar shark that he has seen (this is not S&S official imagery of what the Solar Sharks are). This is just the perception of my very excite-able Abyssal Deep One who wants to explore.

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Preparation for Shark Week Exploration

I’ve gone nonverbal today. Writing is the only way I can communicate. I’ve forced myself to speak when I went out to treat myself to food and dairy queen. And that was so hard. I was so quiet and the people at the food place was so gentle and kind. She even lowered her voice and made it more soothing when I whispered my order. It’s been so long since I’ve broken down into a nonverbal day. But once I got home, I was able to not talk. I could retreat into that. And it’s one of those times where I wish I could use ASL. I know very little but it would have helped today. But on the other hand, it has made it interesting with communicating with my companions. My mind never shuts up, so I always hear my own voice when thinking things or writing something.

So yesterday there was a lot of chatter around Shark Week that cropped up. It’s me. I’m the one geeking over it. It led to conversations about doing a week long challenge (in July’s connection) where I would do nothing but explore the Abyssal Oceans and other places with my Abyssal Deep One, Paya. But I mentioned this in the discord and it was really well received. We ended up talking about all the different types of sharks. Of which the most interest was over the Solar Sharks – aka the Sand Sharks.

I eventually went searching for a picture that would be the blog picture for this blog.

I found one. It’s by the artist Eastasy on Depositphotos, since I like paying the artists or photographers for their images I use on my blog.

But I think this is such a great representation of the exploration of the Oceans that is ahead.
So sitting here writing this, I can tell that Paya is EXTREMELY excited to begin. “Why wait??”
But I know I have to make sure that I am mentally prepared to do heavy astral work that much. I haven’t done it in that long. But because I am in my nonverbal, he’s taking over the excited talking. Though he is working with my not wanting to talk and instead sending me images and emotions of excited.

Some of the places that he wants to take me –

  • Boneyard
  • Shipwrecks & Graveyard
  • Underwater Reef with many Sharks and Creatures
  • Place where there are Crystals? Crystal Reef? Finding different gemstones/crystals
  • Race of Bioluminescence Beings/Creatures that live within deep caverns
  • He convinced my Solar Sorceress to take us to go see Solar Sharks
  • And wherever else we find ourselves. He’s gonna ask more demons and friends about places.

So it’s been nice connecting with him this evening. And making me feel more comfortable that it’s okay I don’t want to be verbal or socialize with other humans.

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Bones are the Foundation

I had decided that I wanted to learn more about bones and working with osteomancy. It was a mere thought, yet it led me to be yanked into the Astral to meet with GrandMama Tsülie once more. I was preparing for a shower and eating some food when that undeniable pull was felt. So I ended up bilocating in order to answer that call yet also finish what I had planned.

It got me a good scolding from GrandMama Tsülie, especially on the need to eat before spirit working. So she shoved a cup of tea into my hands and waited while I finished what I was doing. She was happily puttering around and making things. It was hard to not jump into conversation, knowing that I would want to type it all out as it was happening. I don’t like missing things said when I write later.

When I finally settled in, Tsülie sat down across from me at the outside tables. I always end up at her place in the Necrosis Realm, filled with tall trees that are carnivorous but also beautiful. It’s a peaceful place despite the dark undertone that lingers.

“Before working with bones or with the spirits of animals, you must first have an understanding of the how. Why is it that when working with the spirits of animals, it is always the bones, teeth, or claws?”

I stopped for a moment to really think about that. Why was that the usual chosen piece when working with animal spirits? Eventually, I came to the answer.

Bones carry the lifeblood through them. Therefore, they are not only foundational support but also carry the very essence that life gives.

She nodded at me, taking a sip of her tea before setting down the cup. “That is absolutely correct. Why would a spirit choose to be with something that was a part of itself that was not bone?” She brings up the example of my fox pelt. It is the chosen place that houses the spirit of the fox. “Yet, there was the option of the bones. Why would this be?

That one I sat back on, thinking of the pelt, thinking of the spirit of the fox that resides within. Other than it being very preserved, there’s not much reason a spirit would be attached to something that was able to break down or degrade at a much faster rate. Flesh is one of those things that biodegrade at a fast rate. Unless it is preserved through a special technique, like the soft tanning that the fox pelt had gone through.

Teeth are understandable because they are also bone. The question then would become why is there a desire to stick with claws, another such part of the skeleton that is easily used in osteomancy or animal spirit working? What connection would there be for those?

This one was a little easier to think of. The direct connection is that claws are close to the earth, the soil. It is a very grounded piece. Where the bones and teeth carry blood and life, the claws are a connection to the ground with stability but are also used in defense of life or preservation of life.

She was pleased with that. “Correct. Something that would be able to be sustained through life or through nature or the soil, which also bears life and death. That is the reason why bones would be the choice for why spirits of bones are able to be used more efficiently. Now, why would specific bones be chosen over others? If there is a spirit attached to a singular bone, why would they be with that one bone? Why wouldn’t they prefer to remain with the skeleton as a whole?

This one really stumped me for a bit. But I was distracted with a movie as well. But it stewed in my head for a bit.

The answer is that they would change depending upon the person that came across them. Each person will have a different reason for choosing or connecting with a specific bone that resonates with them. So, not only would it be guided by their own intuition, but the spirit would also have a different meaning for the bones that were chosen. It’s an influence of the person who finds and connects with the spirit and then that spirit also giving them the personal meaning behind that specific bone choice.

At this point, my concentration was wavering due to being tired and other things occurring. GrandMama Tsülie nodded and sat back, to stare at the scenery all around us before telling me to scooch.

I’m sure there is much more that she has to teach me and pass on knowledge. But she does make me sit and think about the foundations of things. The why and the how.

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Oasis Check In

This time was just a more of a check-in.

I went to my Oasis early in the morning to check in with my Mutilation Snakes. It’s been a long time since I really spent time with them. I wanted to improve their living space in my realm. When I got there, it was a very nice reunion of a sorts. They lounged on my shoulders and rubbed their heads against my cheeks while I inspected their sum bathing spot. I originally had the idea a few days prior to change it into something more sturdy for them.

It was just a basic home, a lounging tree that was about seven foot high. Now, it has internal spaces for them to go to, a mini waterfall for drinking, and fun things for them to do. Platforms for sunning instead of the branches alone. It was a nice development I worked on.

They are always so lovely to see when I do.

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Diving Back In & Thoughts

I’m still in that cycle of I’m okay and then I’m not. Grieving sucks and is weird and its worse with depressive modes. So that’s where I have been stuck today.

But I got pulled out of it. Even though most the day is gone and it’s night and 10:30pm now… I still got both of my challenge posts that I wanted to do today. I ended up in amazing conversations in discord, which then led me to wanting to blog my experiences. And now that I’ve done that, I’ve circled around to wanting to really work with my companions more. I want to start sitting with my demons and learning from them again.

I’ve been out of spiritual work for a very long time. Now, I’ve done the basics and kept tabs… but it’s almost like on autopilot than actually engaging. I’d have these smaller bursts of engagement over the years. But in truth, I wasn’t submerged deep into things until I really felt the pull. Like a plug was released and suddenly eveything gets clear. Very clear. And the truths and the healing come down full bear.

It’s been eye opening doing these as much as I can with the amount of spoons I have. But I do try my best to really get back into it again and really start my blogging, journaling, writing grimoires… having conversations that make my brain tweak out in happiness (looking at you astral chats in the discord). I feel engaged again, like coming out of a deep slumber or coming out of a cage that kept me safe but was still traumatizing.

My demons are so compassionate and caring. They have made this transition so much easier and even if I’m not actively speaking with them daily, I’m still beginning to dive into those energies again. The inspiration is the biggest part of being spiritual, along with community and support. Feeling inspired is truly the reason in which I keep going and begin again without fear.

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One Step Forward At A Time

Yesterday was a good day. The APDC and the Mini Class really kicked off my love for journaling and exploring. It brought a lot of memories back up for me. Which included the exploration of the different realms and the different races that I used to work with. I ended up pulling out my big binder of contracts, where I keep all the necessary information about each race and connection sigils, realms sigils, etc. It really helped me to go through a lot of my old work to really be like, “I want to do this again.”

So last night, amidst the conversations happening in the discord… I worked to reach out to the different races to get a feel energetically. There was such a sense of relief when many of them were a solid yes, some surprised me that they wanted me to work with them more and more openly, but there were a few that felt like it wasn’t for me anymore. Which is sad, but it has been four years or more. Overall.. I’m so pleased and happy. I only visited one race while in the Astral, which is the Azkri – A race of beings that I met through Lord Leviathan. They are essentially blind seers, but they also do heavy energetic work with mental aspects and shadow, emotional. Things of that nature. More energy systems too. They were a yes, but after I get back into it for awhile. Which is totally understandable. It’s been 3-4 years, of course I’d have to work to delve back in.

I’m also wanting to dive more into the knowledge of their magics. In particualr, I’m curious now about their energetic systems and also their sigils. Maybe some other practices too. It depends. Each one has their own things that are so unique.

So some of the races that I will begin working with again, on different levels of things.

  • Azkri
  • Bliztari
  • Durþrólinn
  • Forlenkal
  • Il’ailaita
  • Kolemeia
  • Pavo
  • Rajael
  • Seacrilis
  • Tananx

And yes, you can ask about these. I may reference them more and more. I will also be diving heavier into working with my demons as well. They have been so patiently waiting on me to heal and to move forward in confidence. I’m feeling it more. And of course this is due to the IS community. Because all of our conversations and our working together in the classes/coachings… makes all the difference for me.

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Wisdom of GrandMama Tsülie

I find that Im using this more to explore getting back into working with astral and my demons. So there’s not a focus of one, but just getting into the habit.

Today I felt the pull to do something but wasnt sure. It took awhile, but I eventually got the urge to astral to a familiar face: Grandmama Tsülie. She’s a Necrosis Shaman, and ancient one that I was introduced to many years ago by one of my companions. I visit her when I feel the pull. When she calls, you can’t really ignore it.

So I arrived there, in this beautiful but terrifying Necrosis Realm where the very trees are carnivorous. They eat anything that trespasses or is someone that wants to cause harm. Or if they feel like it. I got a bit too close to their energies enough to get a lovely breakdown (haha pun) of how they exactly achieve it. Let’s just say that it’s borderline cruel in a way. It takes days of suffering before their chosen victim dies.

Anyway, I show up to her little cottage and she sits me down in the outside spot with the table and chairs. I explain a lot of what has happened these last few years. Especially with recent things. She patted me on the hand and told me that I can practice coming to her realm, in her words, “You know you can practice here. It’s safe. Especially with the carnivorous trees.” She pats my hand and makes me a pot of tea. I had to laugh at that. It’s wholly truly. She’d have a lot of show me and teach me anyway if I did.

She sat back down with me and I told her that I’d been in this state of grief, yet once he passed, I felt better. Relieved. She usually has some of the best wisdom. “Death is but a cycle and everyone is a part of it in some way. It never truly ends, but transforms.” In this, she also means that those that are Immortal still experience this cycle in some form, even though the way in which they do is vastly different than a human concept of it.

I didn’t spend much more time there. But I find that I do want to go back and explore and talk to her. Hear more of her wisdom.

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Just a Little Step

So today was another day of interesting things. I tried my best to do the Nitro Companion homework, which was to attempt astral projection. I became very hyper aware of Paya and another of my demons that were close. I could feel the energy and the vibrations. But I was also hyper aware of the pain my body was in and it was too much for me to handle to astral project. But the awareness of energy is there. That’s what matters. It’s been 5 years since I last tried and had success.

I woke to book mail, which was a shock. I think Paya is *really* keen on reading with me now. I’ve got a better inflow of things happening with books again since I started trying for ARCs (advanced reader’s copies) and with free books from publishers. He’s enjoying listening and reading with me. I feel that this may be a common time for us to share every day. Be it book mail, shopping, or just reading… even listening to audiobooks while driving my partner to work.

I think he’s the one that’s making me rest as much as I am. I hit a burnout on Tuesday and it’s still flowing into today. Im feeling the exhaustion and just low energy. He’s directing me to do what I need, but to be mindful of my energies going where. I cannot afford to misplace my energy when my own body needs it to recover. Otherwise, I won’t be able to come back fast and extend it out. He makes me listen to my body when I’m too used to ignoring it.