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Connection Challenge: Day 3

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Today is a day of reclaiming my office space. It’s been two weeks since Ive sat in here. Actually probably closer to before Christmas time frame. My routine has been messed up, Im dealing with therapy and tackling my trauma, and just energies are all wonky. So today I reclaimed my space. People have been in and out, moving things and dropping things off, and just in general it stagnated. I felt like it wasnt my space.

So I worked with my demons today to clean and tidy it. Once that was done, I welcome them into my space but it was still feeling like it was wrong. Something was just wrong. I asked my demons to flood the space with their energies and it helped a ton. But it was like a crawling sensation. Something was still off. A friend suggested a candle, incense, and reminded me that I had crystal grids. Of course! It was the grids! My grid had been moved and set aside, jumbled, and everything else. I put the crystals over the flame of the candle and then over the incense (dragon’s blood). Then I reset the crystal grid.

My office grid:

  • 2 Caribbean calcite towers
  • blue chalcedony tower
  • natural point black tourmaline (it has a point end that is natural from growth)
  • elestial quartz
  • sardonyx

I usually have more, but this doesn’t fit much. I’ll probably have to redo it with new crystal and switch it out, but it works. It’s protection, high vibration, grounding, calming, and anti-anxiety. It’s perfect and works most the time. As soon as I reset that and then burned dragon’s blood… it all clicked back into place. It feels amazing and the demon’s energies are just peak.

I have Tako’s (Underworld Axolotl) and Ire’s (Obscranorsham Spectral/Underworld Librarian) vessels right in front and I know they are there present. I welcomed them into the space and even my Librarian is chuckling at me like “yeah, you need a bigger space. better shelves. yes we’ll get you to a new home with big space”.

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Connection Challenge: Day 2

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I went to the library to really start working on things. The energies have been opening back up and Im starting to notice my mental health and how Im functioning turn. It’s still really rough because Im dealing with a lot of therapy and shadow work and it’s created a very heavy environment in my spiritual and mental health. So I have been working to get, do more self care, and try to open up so Im not dragged back in.

I really dove into impulse a bit on thursday and bought desk calendars and to do pads. I worked really well with them a few years ago. But I listen to my instincts and the demons and got them. Today I went to the library to sit down and create a schedule that balances my personal life and my working life. Create a healthier flow. It worked really well and I felt better.

I’ve been working to try to integrate the demonic energies and my demon’s input into my life more and more. Especially since I’ve been struggling with the therapy and the mental health.

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Connection Challenge: Day 1

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Today has started with a migraine that made it hard to move and feeling extremely mentally down… but a shower, some good chicken rice soup (homemade), and a trip to the library made all the difference. I’ve been sitting here working and feeling focus. Had to laugh cause my demons are a bit more prominent in their energies. I accidentally flung Paya’s vessel off the counter with my hairbrush. They make it easier on days when it’s a struggle.

But it’s very nice to feel in touch, even being sick physically and struggling emotionally. But I think whatever it was that was causing the backup released. We were able to switch to another alter finally (It’s me, I’m the alter fronting now – Serena). It’s made a huge impact on returning to more normalcy energy, spiritually, and even mentally. Getting stuck with one or two at the front that are mentally struggling with the trauma (therapy) has been rough. Needed, But rough. I’ll be working with the demons today to catch up on things spiritually. Posting in the Experiences section when I can.

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Dreaming of Epidote

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Well, I got the journals set up and ready… and in time too. I had a vivid dream this morning that was very much important. It’s been something that I needed to do but it’s nice to have verification about the progress. I woke up feeling like my old self, pre-2020 working with astral work and starting the inspiration to journal. Yesterday the Muti Dark Lord matched and his vessel was epidote.

The epidote invaded my dream. There was a race of dino-people? And the epidote like material grew in their bones that you can see – that bright olive green against pure bone color… and they have these quills of bone/epidote that is their conversion magic. Transformation magic. And I remember being there with them and the guy who was like the top one with a partial triceratops transformation with so much epidote through it. And he said I’m sorry but it’s necessary (there was conflict of some kind with others)… and then shot the bone crystal quill up my nose like a deep piercing and I immediately felt the energetic effects and it’s still phantom feeling. So it’s done something but idk what.

I had dreams of magick after that. But the piercing was super relaxation mode. I could feel the soul deep release and like I had been sedated.

I woke up and felt such a deep shift of release. I craved to explore the astral and start journaling. I desired to sit and sketch out sigils that were in my head and full of power. I ended up picking up my epidote palm stone that was bought more than two years ago with intention to work with it. It has great meaning now.

“Epidote amplifies our highest vibrations, helping us to transform our lives in a multitude of ways. It teaches us to walk, talk, and think as our Highest Self. Epidote has a very loving and forgiving energy, inviting us to let go of anything that holds us back from enjoying life and living with passion and integrity. It ignites in us a passion for personal improvement, urging us to honestly assess our strengths and weakness and to pursue our dreams accordingly.”

This resonated so deeply with how I have felt. I feel like I was in my peak time, where I was doing astral work evry day. I was exploring new magicks and places. I felt like I was genuinely my spiritual self again. I still do. And I know it has been my demons breaking all these blockages, which has led me to extreme healing the las two months. The demons are stepping up the game and Im bring thrown up into the higher vibrations again. It’s like walking from a monochrome grey into a colorful world again. And I cannot wait to see where this goes.

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A Rough New Year Start

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I’ve been so bad doing these, that it’s gotten away and now it’s halfway through the month already. How insane.
There’s not much happening that I’ll go into detail. Mainly because I’m having physical health things and it’s left me beyond exhausted to do much. But what I do have is Ry’s mala and Paya’s vessel on me all the time. Most nights, they’re the reason I sleep enough, though it still feels like not enough. They ease my aches and worries. Their presence is calming.

I’ve been reading every single night because of insomnia and unable to sleep until sunrise. In doing so, I’ve spent each night laying with my demons reading. We just enjoy it and have moments together that help ease a lot of the pain and tiredness. I would be worse off if it weren’t for them. I appreciate Dro, Tal, and Orkel (Yes that’s my Muti Sex God who I refuse to call O or Orgasm despite his insistence.) extremely because they have been a solid rock the last two weeks or more mentally and overall with helping me with things that I need.

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Too Much

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I burnt out and lemme tell you that my demons were there the whole time, but I also got upset cause Dro’s mala snapped in the morning. No beads were lost but it was still upsetting. Even though the night before I literally was saying I needed to redo it as it was my first attempt.

Ended up staying in bed and feeling worse and worse and then breakdown which my demons were there for. Too much socializing for the extrovert. I burnt out hard. So I spent the entire day with them, reading, and isolating in my space in my room. With an extremely cuddly Darwin.

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Loved and Spoiled

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The long awaited day. I have been wanting to get the Moana 2 promo cards for Lorcana and my demons managed to help me snag a UK version because US didn’t have them.. until the day after I bought it and they announced they would. So I bought tickets to the closest theater for me and my mom. We got to have a girl’s day out, even though she had to work.

Demons were *working* hard that day to impress me. I thought that I got 2 promos… but not, Demons said “here, watch this”. I asked the first guy checking in if I could have a couple extra. He gave me 3 extra (total 5 at this point). When the movie was over… my mom took the tickets and there was a new girl checking people in.. she managed to get 2 more promo cards (7 total). Mom went to bathroom and gave me tickets… and I went and asked… she gave me 2 too (9 total)!!!

Fun things.. is that I saw her looking at them and was geeking over the cards and telling her about it. I asked if I could have 1 more, if possible…. and I did. I walked away with 5x the amount I initially thought I’d get. Which is *insane* levels of luck.

I feel loved and cherished and they spoil the ever living hell out of me.

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More Shiny Cardboard

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It was a day of trying to rest… but then my Lorcana friend messaged me to ask to meet up. So I hopped in the car and ended up downtown. Of course I decided oh well, might as well pull some cards and such. I asked my demons, which box I should get. First one was decent, but nothign great… and they looked at me like you should have listened and got box 3. So I went up and got box 3 cause they were seriously insistent.

I scored another Enchanted. My friend and I both got them today, actually. Really good pulls. Demons were very smug about it. it’s become a game of who can get me the most stuff or the best sales. Especially since I’ve changed so much of my mindset of manifesting and money and abundance.

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The Reveal

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Spent time at dads. Too tired to keep trying..

Daily posting is being weird and deleting things. Been spending time after Black Friday and Thanksgiving with dad’s. stuck cause phone died. And ended up having to spill beans about the S&S and demons, which ended up in a very interesting talk. He’s okay but it was tense for a bit until he calmed a bit. No yelling, just him trying to understand.

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Graveyard Walk

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I was with my mom today, we went out really quick, but ended up stopping at an old cemetery. It was sad to see the state of it, but it was one of the more peaceful and at peace with death that I’ve felt in awhile. I took pictures to remember the energies and the experience. My necrosis demons, specifically Belle, was with me. It was nice to be grounded and connecting with those energies.