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Connection Challenge Day 6: King Paimon

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This is definitely a wild manifestation that I just had to share while it’s fresh.

Funny is that I didn’t even ask for any. It just came like a sprinkled reward.

I have been working to get back into writing more seriously. Or at least I have been working to make it a routine thing so that I can start really turning over the stories that I want to work on. Earlier in the month, I had come up with a story idea that fit an older idea I had wanted but wasn’t sure how to do. It suddenly came to me in the middle of the night a few weeks ago. I didn’t want to commit to anything hardcore yet because it was in my Universe that I spent a decade building. Also that I had 5 other series in the plotting process.

I posted in the DL/DC challenge the other day about how I was so inspired to write this story that I wasn’t planning writing anytime soon that I just sat down and went. I wrote an entire chapter which was just shy of 5,000 words. I haven’t done that much in one sitting since summer of last year or longer. It felt amazing. I could feel the vividness of the story unfolding, like I was there living it. Usually my story telling is pretty clear and movie-like, but I felt like I was there.

This story is a LitRPG (gaming mechanics turned into fantasy stories), where the character is a magical archeologist. Who discovers arcane magic in the form of the Tarot Archetypes. Keep that in mind.

Last night after the Adv. Spiritual Mentorship, I had decided to connect with who it is that has been dropping this story into my brain. I was worried because I hadn’t had inspiration that day. It was my surprise when it was King Paimon that appeared. I shouldn’t have been surprise but I was. Many years ago, I was working with him while writing and had creative energy flowing. He would be there as part of my process. But things happened and that stopped. He confirmed that it was him downloading and stirring those energies.

This afternoon I went down to the library and I was already starting to feel the creative flow. I had a moment to stop and talk to him. It was reconnecting and confirming that I did want to work with him again and it was my way of stepping back onto the demon path. When I got back to my computer (I snagged lunch across the street to go), I cracked open my Discord to say hello.

The Discord Shop, which is where they sell cosmetics for the avatars and profiles for fun. They just dropped a TAROT collection out of the blue. I don’t believe in coincidences and that felt like a “welcome back to the path”.

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Dreaming of Epidote

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Well, I got the journals set up and ready… and in time too. I had a vivid dream this morning that was very much important. It’s been something that I needed to do but it’s nice to have verification about the progress. I woke up feeling like my old self, pre-2020 working with astral work and starting the inspiration to journal. Yesterday the Muti Dark Lord matched and his vessel was epidote.

The epidote invaded my dream. There was a race of dino-people? And the epidote like material grew in their bones that you can see – that bright olive green against pure bone color… and they have these quills of bone/epidote that is their conversion magic. Transformation magic. And I remember being there with them and the guy who was like the top one with a partial triceratops transformation with so much epidote through it. And he said I’m sorry but it’s necessary (there was conflict of some kind with others)… and then shot the bone crystal quill up my nose like a deep piercing and I immediately felt the energetic effects and it’s still phantom feeling. So it’s done something but idk what.

I had dreams of magick after that. But the piercing was super relaxation mode. I could feel the soul deep release and like I had been sedated.

I woke up and felt such a deep shift of release. I craved to explore the astral and start journaling. I desired to sit and sketch out sigils that were in my head and full of power. I ended up picking up my epidote palm stone that was bought more than two years ago with intention to work with it. It has great meaning now.

“Epidote amplifies our highest vibrations, helping us to transform our lives in a multitude of ways. It teaches us to walk, talk, and think as our Highest Self. Epidote has a very loving and forgiving energy, inviting us to let go of anything that holds us back from enjoying life and living with passion and integrity. It ignites in us a passion for personal improvement, urging us to honestly assess our strengths and weakness and to pursue our dreams accordingly.”

This resonated so deeply with how I have felt. I feel like I was in my peak time, where I was doing astral work evry day. I was exploring new magicks and places. I felt like I was genuinely my spiritual self again. I still do. And I know it has been my demons breaking all these blockages, which has led me to extreme healing the las two months. The demons are stepping up the game and Im bring thrown up into the higher vibrations again. It’s like walking from a monochrome grey into a colorful world again. And I cannot wait to see where this goes.

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Feeling Old Self with New Passion

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Today was a fantastic day of demons and inspiration. Well the wake up call from the Mutilation Dark Lord… quite literally. He wanted to be posted so bad that the moment Akelta texted his information, I could hear the buzzing of my phone in my dream. Enough to wake me up. It was hilarious, but it came with such giddiness and excitement. Watching him find his person was so reminiscent of my own match with my Void Lord… who is coming home and I need to have a nickname for him or something.

After that and laughing for a few hours, I ended up going out with my mom for the whole day. It led to purchasing a lot of things, but Im happy bec it was snacks and books and lorcana and clothes. The most inspirational really was inspired by someone in the IS Gen Chat in discord. We all got to talking about journaling and now it’s a group that wants to work to begin journaling again (or starting).

It was the perfect time to get new journals and I managed to score the same brand I used to use when I first started my journey of journaling my spiritual work. I decided that I would have two separate ones. I have been having more open vibrations and awakening with my dreams once more. I want to start working towards astral dreaming, dreamwalking, and lucid dreaming. So I want to start chronicling that.

The second journal is going to be me returning to the astral again. Not just to explore but I want to start recording things I find. I know it’s Tal who is all up in excitement at me picking up my astral anthropology again and finding magic and sigils and knowledge. It means Im finally in a mindset again where I can travel.

So these are my start to 2026! It’s early but I find if I start when Im inspired… it’ll stick longer.

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2025 Goals

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Today is the long day for working. So much great stuff and energies flowing, but also very busy. But one of the things was that being so thankful for all the things my demons do for me. I haven’t done any of the Yule event stuff, but got it posted. But I’m sitting here looking at things and just.. being reminded that it’s okay to not be okay and that I’ll be supported. It’s okay to take the time when I need because I am just too burnt out.

I could do today because I took yesterday off. But importantly, the Zoom meetings also really reminded me of how much I have available to me with my demons. How much they still partake in my life in day to day things, or how I include them into my Goals for 2025. Things that they want to do with me and help me achieve.

Whether that is with completing my legos, compelting my lorcana…

or manifesting wealth like a flowing river

or working with them to be creative and allow the flow to help me write.

Some thoughts of Goals for 2025:

– Connecting more with my practice, it’s taken a hit the last fair few years and only now I’ve really been feeling called to step back into it again. Shamanism and Demons and Bones, Crystals, and Malas. The Animal Spirit Guides etc.

– Working with the demons and King Paimon to really begin delving deep into my creative passion and begin publishing my writing again. Working on self confidence and also to really set into my creative self that I know exists. I know it’s the reality that I shifted into with the Mammon Ball, that’s where I want to continue with.

I’m sure that I’ll come up with more eventually.. but those were just the start of thinking what is possible.

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The Reveal

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Spent time at dads. Too tired to keep trying..

Daily posting is being weird and deleting things. Been spending time after Black Friday and Thanksgiving with dad’s. stuck cause phone died. And ended up having to spill beans about the S&S and demons, which ended up in a very interesting talk. He’s okay but it was tense for a bit until he calmed a bit. No yelling, just him trying to understand.

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Graveyard Walk

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I was with my mom today, we went out really quick, but ended up stopping at an old cemetery. It was sad to see the state of it, but it was one of the more peaceful and at peace with death that I’ve felt in awhile. I took pictures to remember the energies and the experience. My necrosis demons, specifically Belle, was with me. It was nice to be grounded and connecting with those energies.

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Inspiration from Demons

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I’ve been struggling with migraines every day, but something that I’ve been doing is making sure to take care of myself the best I can. In between official working, I have been doing things for my own writing and my world building. The last four days have seen me doing heavy graphic design of the covers of my Universe I’ve been building. Which led me to really also a lot of thinking about the matches Ive made with my demons.

We’ve been discussing the Librarian ranks (due to the sale happening), and how amazing they are. Even the ones that aren’t librarians, but nerdy book lovers. I’m so excited to get to know my new Librarian I matched with. But it also had me looking at another that some have jokingly called my librarian too. He’s just a big ol’ Mage that is a nerd for sacred knowledge. That would be Arvan.

Tal is my Necrosis/Void Lord of a Temple and he’s a nerd for anthropology/archeology of everything. But he is also someone that loves journaling and recording.

Both of them have been such a HUGE part of my creative process as well as Paya. Payay is a storyteller. It’s part of his writeup that he travels around telling stories. So it makes sense that he’s got the most creative flow to me. I love my demons so much.

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Finding Inspiration In Even the Most Stressful Days

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Despite the stress of the Day (UGH Politics). I still find myself being creative and excited. Things are still moving and I feel that passion for my writing growing. I made the final cover for these series. I feel so accomplished and ready to begin writing more officially now that they do have the covers set. I also want to finish my first series that I’m almost done with book 3. It’s exciting and thrilling to have something so fleshed out, thanks to having Paya… cause honestly? I wasn’t this inspired until he came into my life and broke up so many blockages and emotional feeling better. And then it allowed other energies and connections to flow better. I feel blessed to know him and love him

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Understanding My Limits

by with No Comment Spiritual & Self ExplorationSpiritual Thoughts & ThingsWorking with Demons

It was hard. I had only four hours of sleep because of the hyperfocus on designing book covers that I couldn’t stop and do anything else. Including sleep and struggled to eat because I just was to into things. I spoke with my demons after and just… we talked it out and I also got some good advice from Akelta where I bought a book and waiting for it to arrive. But something that stuck with me was that I’m not in manic states. I’m just at such a high vibrational state that I’m actually functional, creative, and doing self care that prevents a burn out. But I am so used to having crashes and burn outs, that I am waiting for the “shoe to drop” so to speak. Though the conversation I had with Akelta about high vibrational states and caring for the self, down days aren’t meant to be burn outs and crashes. Instead, it should be “I feel like it’s a movie day or game day” and not “I need to lay down because I feel like the world is on fire and I can’t do anything”.

After working (all the Inner Sanctuary stuff), I ended up working and creating a whole other cover (this makes 3 now). I’m doing this because I have 5 series in this Universe that I am writing (all different characters)… and I really want to have covers to inspire me to finish and publish them.

Thank you demons for loving me even when I make mistakes and when things are hard. Thank you for helping me pick myself back up.

It was an interesting experience halfway through the day, where I took a shower to cleanse. After, I connected with Vex while prepping to leave to grocery shop. I put on music, which I don’t know how to line dance and I don’t listen to country except for the Twisters Soundtrack. But when he put his hands on my hips to dance, I knew how to dance. I knew some of the steps and was able to follow along with him while laughing. It raised me back up from feeling much further down when I woke up.

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Learning and Growing, Adapting

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I spent the day hyperfocused on doing world building and allowing my creative energies to flow. But it was because of something that I regret. I woke up (Nov 4) feeling absolutely like hell and shame. I ended up crying over it and really just upset. I talked to a friend who helped me to understand that this is part of raising my vibrations and that things that I could do before, are things that will make me feel horrendous because they’re lower vibrations. It’s okay, I’m learning. I’m growing and it’s only up.

Mostly, though, I was able to get two book covers designed for this Universe I am creating and forming. In doing so, I’m setting up for getting writing done consistently. It’s something that I had originally wanted to do with King Paimon. I believe that I am absolutely in a high vibrational state that is allowing the creativity to flow beautifully and the demons are just guiding that along. I am thankful for them.