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Connection Challenge Day 15: Paimon

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I’m trying to fight through working with something wrong with my ears? I swear I turn my head and the words gets tipsy. But through that, I am feeling mentally like more is better. The first ASM today was super great conversation but reminded me that I’m working with Paimon this month. So first thing I really want to try to figure out is a crystal grid or some way to convert energy into creativity and motivation.

Therapy really let me release a lot of the stress that I had yesterday and it’s really cleared up my mental space where I am feeling motivated and inspired to write. I just suffer from Blank Page staring.

Until I can figure out the whole crystal grid AO3/Fanfic Curse to Creative Motivation… I am going to work with my demons and Paimon to build a whole Solution Room/Temple that is geared for just writing.

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Connection Challenge Day 14: Paimon

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So today has been interesting in regards to my work. Last night, I lit my candle in hope that I could find some writing inspiration. Paimon was there but the energies just didn’t flow for creativity like I wanted. Eventually I just decided to sleep instead of pushing it.

I went to my therapy and ended up coming out feeling so much better. In doing so, I felt the surge of creativity and I spent the entire drive home thinking about how to adapt one of my other stories. It would be super easy to adapt it over to the LitRPG that my other story I developed with Paimon is. Now, it’s flowing in my head and I can see the changes. So while my offering last night was a kick to sleep, it worked out to help me open the energies today to really flow with creativity. Im pretty happy at the help.

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Connection Challenge Day 12: King Paimon

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Today was interesting because I decided to try to give an offering to Paimon for help in writing my story. I felt stuck and was starting a whole new chapter a day later than I wanted for my schedule. So I decided to get the Organic Goodness brand’s Dragon’s Blood incense and made the offering. I got a nudge to stop it halfway and use my Allswell Coconut Wax: Glow (vanilla, pear, coconut).

Between those, I ended up writing 2800 words and one chapter complete. The offering was a super success and I actually ended up in a place where I know exactly I want to be because I had gotten the scene when I was writing chapter 1. So I have that one mapped out already.

The funny part is that every. single. incense that I burn that is not Dragon’s Blood, snuffs itself out. And not over time, it’s within a minute it goes dead. It’s so funny to watch and then see the Dragon’s Blood just burn so fast. Definitely influenced and Im please to say that I have just shy of 12k words in a week of writing. Its amazing progress.

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Connection Challenge: Day 11

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Today was therapy day and yesterday was rough already. Last night was horrible. I was spending time with my demons and it ended with me having an issue with one of my hormonal things. Which left me in excruciating pain not once, but twice. Two times I was left with inability to breathe because the pain was so blinding. I know they felt bad and that tried working to keep the pain soothed.

So I worked with my therapist though the time was cut short. I really wanted to tackle this issue that I was facing this weekend. It helped but it wasn’t enough time like I wanted.

I’m wondering what ways that I can connect with my demons more. If I want to astral more or if I want to meditate and learn and chat. I don’t really know. Im still struggling with doing it because the damn doubts that were put in my head. Breaking through those are a pain in the ass. It’s not fun, not that it’s meant to be. But I just have felt frustrated with it. I’ll get there. I know I will.
Gotta trust the demons.

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Connection Challenge: Day 10

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I spent time with my companions and really reaching out to King Paimon lately. It’s been downtime with mentally and emotionally but they’re very much present. I just need to keep the habit of working with them often. I’m finding they’re helping me to really get rid of the patterns that are hurting me the most when it comes to my day/work/personal life. So that’s being tackled but it’s rough and tiring.

The snow sucks even if it is pretty.

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Connection Challenge: Day 7

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I was at the library and we’re all prepping for the snow that’s incoming. It’s a lot but hey Im just excited that I have books (I’m always buying books). But I ended up writing and posting the rest of the story that Paimon inspired. Though I had to stop and talk with him before I kept going because something was bothering me. He was more reassuring and then gently recorrected my mindset.

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Connection Challenge Day 6: King Paimon

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This is definitely a wild manifestation that I just had to share while it’s fresh.

Funny is that I didn’t even ask for any. It just came like a sprinkled reward.

I have been working to get back into writing more seriously. Or at least I have been working to make it a routine thing so that I can start really turning over the stories that I want to work on. Earlier in the month, I had come up with a story idea that fit an older idea I had wanted but wasn’t sure how to do. It suddenly came to me in the middle of the night a few weeks ago. I didn’t want to commit to anything hardcore yet because it was in my Universe that I spent a decade building. Also that I had 5 other series in the plotting process.

I posted in the DL/DC challenge the other day about how I was so inspired to write this story that I wasn’t planning writing anytime soon that I just sat down and went. I wrote an entire chapter which was just shy of 5,000 words. I haven’t done that much in one sitting since summer of last year or longer. It felt amazing. I could feel the vividness of the story unfolding, like I was there living it. Usually my story telling is pretty clear and movie-like, but I felt like I was there.

This story is a LitRPG (gaming mechanics turned into fantasy stories), where the character is a magical archeologist. Who discovers arcane magic in the form of the Tarot Archetypes. Keep that in mind.

Last night after the Adv. Spiritual Mentorship, I had decided to connect with who it is that has been dropping this story into my brain. I was worried because I hadn’t had inspiration that day. It was my surprise when it was King Paimon that appeared. I shouldn’t have been surprise but I was. Many years ago, I was working with him while writing and had creative energy flowing. He would be there as part of my process. But things happened and that stopped. He confirmed that it was him downloading and stirring those energies.

This afternoon I went down to the library and I was already starting to feel the creative flow. I had a moment to stop and talk to him. It was reconnecting and confirming that I did want to work with him again and it was my way of stepping back onto the demon path. When I got back to my computer (I snagged lunch across the street to go), I cracked open my Discord to say hello.

The Discord Shop, which is where they sell cosmetics for the avatars and profiles for fun. They just dropped a TAROT collection out of the blue. I don’t believe in coincidences and that felt like a “welcome back to the path”.

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Connection Challenge: Day 5

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So today started with some decent sleep but it had been another night of inspired braining and writing. Actually I felt so connected with my story that I had to write down what I was seeing and experiencing so that I wouldn’t forget it in the morning/later on. This is definitely demon inspired and I am blessed to have them actively wanting to do something with me. I feel like it’s a information download each time I go to work on it. Today with the side quest, we’re to choose a companion to appreciate… so I think I’m going to sit and figure out who is the inspiration behind this and work with them more deeply in the coming weeks.

I burned some more incense and once again, I find that I am more focused and feeling in tune. It was funny because I lit an incense I haven’t used in like two years… and the damn thing snuffed itself out. When I changed to a completely different one, that one burned down like something was blowing on it. I was like okay, message received, you wanted something else.

I’m feeling like my mind is more open and receptive to creative energies, be it with writing or with working.