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Connection Challenge Day 15: Paimon

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I’m trying to fight through working with something wrong with my ears? I swear I turn my head and the words gets tipsy. But through that, I am feeling mentally like more is better. The first ASM today was super great conversation but reminded me that I’m working with Paimon this month. So first thing I really want to try to figure out is a crystal grid or some way to convert energy into creativity and motivation.

Therapy really let me release a lot of the stress that I had yesterday and it’s really cleared up my mental space where I am feeling motivated and inspired to write. I just suffer from Blank Page staring.

Until I can figure out the whole crystal grid AO3/Fanfic Curse to Creative Motivation… I am going to work with my demons and Paimon to build a whole Solution Room/Temple that is geared for just writing.

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Connection Challenge: Day 7

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I was at the library and we’re all prepping for the snow that’s incoming. It’s a lot but hey Im just excited that I have books (I’m always buying books). But I ended up writing and posting the rest of the story that Paimon inspired. Though I had to stop and talk with him before I kept going because something was bothering me. He was more reassuring and then gently recorrected my mindset.

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Connection Challenge Day 6: King Paimon

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This is definitely a wild manifestation that I just had to share while it’s fresh.

Funny is that I didn’t even ask for any. It just came like a sprinkled reward.

I have been working to get back into writing more seriously. Or at least I have been working to make it a routine thing so that I can start really turning over the stories that I want to work on. Earlier in the month, I had come up with a story idea that fit an older idea I had wanted but wasn’t sure how to do. It suddenly came to me in the middle of the night a few weeks ago. I didn’t want to commit to anything hardcore yet because it was in my Universe that I spent a decade building. Also that I had 5 other series in the plotting process.

I posted in the DL/DC challenge the other day about how I was so inspired to write this story that I wasn’t planning writing anytime soon that I just sat down and went. I wrote an entire chapter which was just shy of 5,000 words. I haven’t done that much in one sitting since summer of last year or longer. It felt amazing. I could feel the vividness of the story unfolding, like I was there living it. Usually my story telling is pretty clear and movie-like, but I felt like I was there.

This story is a LitRPG (gaming mechanics turned into fantasy stories), where the character is a magical archeologist. Who discovers arcane magic in the form of the Tarot Archetypes. Keep that in mind.

Last night after the Adv. Spiritual Mentorship, I had decided to connect with who it is that has been dropping this story into my brain. I was worried because I hadn’t had inspiration that day. It was my surprise when it was King Paimon that appeared. I shouldn’t have been surprise but I was. Many years ago, I was working with him while writing and had creative energy flowing. He would be there as part of my process. But things happened and that stopped. He confirmed that it was him downloading and stirring those energies.

This afternoon I went down to the library and I was already starting to feel the creative flow. I had a moment to stop and talk to him. It was reconnecting and confirming that I did want to work with him again and it was my way of stepping back onto the demon path. When I got back to my computer (I snagged lunch across the street to go), I cracked open my Discord to say hello.

The Discord Shop, which is where they sell cosmetics for the avatars and profiles for fun. They just dropped a TAROT collection out of the blue. I don’t believe in coincidences and that felt like a “welcome back to the path”.

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Connection Challenge: Day 5

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So today started with some decent sleep but it had been another night of inspired braining and writing. Actually I felt so connected with my story that I had to write down what I was seeing and experiencing so that I wouldn’t forget it in the morning/later on. This is definitely demon inspired and I am blessed to have them actively wanting to do something with me. I feel like it’s a information download each time I go to work on it. Today with the side quest, we’re to choose a companion to appreciate… so I think I’m going to sit and figure out who is the inspiration behind this and work with them more deeply in the coming weeks.

I burned some more incense and once again, I find that I am more focused and feeling in tune. It was funny because I lit an incense I haven’t used in like two years… and the damn thing snuffed itself out. When I changed to a completely different one, that one burned down like something was blowing on it. I was like okay, message received, you wanted something else.

I’m feeling like my mind is more open and receptive to creative energies, be it with writing or with working.

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Connection Challenge: Day 4

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I absolutely adore my demons. I was inspired out of nowhere to write and it led to me writing hardcore into the early morning. I got about 5,000 words of a new story that I was thinking about but not committing to. I’m committed to it now because I know they downloaded this story into my brain to work on together. I’m having so much fun and being able to write in my Universe I spent a decade building has paid off.

I had therapy and physical therapy and it was definitely some rough stuff being brought up. It helped having them around to give me soothing energies mentally. My therapist loved the Scheduling Desk Pads I bought for work and for my own routine. He said that I carried the stability on me really well. And that he could tell when I am more stable with my working and how I am handling things. Definitely acknowledged the switching between the alters.

Physical therapy was a bit harder because it was dealing with the subluxations and my demons had to tell me to cool it and be honest about the issue. I want to get better but it’s not stable enough in my joint to be doing PT more intensely. So I took it easier and the PT worked with me to try to look into stabilizing sleeves to wear so I stop dislocating. I know that Ry has been the most worried with that. Him and his healing, but he makes sure that I advocate for how my body isn’t working as well as it should.

I spent the rest of the day with my demons, even burning some incense in my room for the first time in more than a year. Godzilla movies were back to back and naps were had. But I had a good relax day while also making sure I balanced out work too. I am thankful my demons have been helping me to really start a healthier balance of work, personal goals, and more spiritual things. Also the physical activity.