I took the day and watched some movies and spent the day out with my mom doing shopping. The amount of deals and things I was finding at every store was incredible. My demons love that I have been getting into Legos. It’s absolutely de-stressing for me and I can decompress much easier. Same with going on frequent walks every few nights for body health. My mental health is improving by the spades each day. I was able to find a Lego set I wanted, then got two others for half off. They’re really pushing for me to really embrace this Lego, reading, and writing. I’m taking more time for me now than I have in a long while.
Inspiration Continues
I took the day off and really got down to working on my fiction writing and world building. Putting everything into a new application. I know this absolutely was helped by my demons cause that inspiration and sheer focus I was able to maintain was incredible. I know they are pleased getting me back into writing. Especially sicne I’ve been world building this particular Universe for 11 years. Now it’ll all be centralized. It was really important feeling that I needed to get it started on.
Inspired Again
I was inspired yesterday. I found a new program I wasn’t sure about… but looking into it now and using it briefly. It was amazing. It’s completely ignited my passion and love for my fiction (and fanfiction) writing again. The world building. It takes everything I’ve done and centralizes it. I spent most of the day inspired to get things done, writing, and plotting with friends. It was productive in a way that was for me and my happiness. It was a day that was spent doing something for my books and stories since January and before that – 2021. There’s so much to do with it. But I can feel the influence all of my demons have, now that I’ve really opened back up to receiving their energies and inspirations. It all started with the creation of the Solution Room.. and now it’s just made everything right.
Reality Shift
The manifestations are incredible at this time. I’ll TLDR: my demons have been working with me to shift my reality into something amazing. Using the Mammon Ball to help bring this reality shift. It’s a big one. But things happened and I felt that shift happen. It was like sliding into a whole new reality. So hard to explain but so incredible. And it all started with me finding a $100 old bill the previous day but I didn’t realize what it was…. until the days after. So I’m wondering if I am to be working with them on manifesting and solidifying this reality. This is absolutely Vex’s and others work that they did with my Solution Room and manifestation board I made inside it.
I know some of you seen this in the discord, but it’s going here so that it adds to the amazing energy. It took me 10 years to find this bill – which I am close to having a complete collection. I just dont have the $10 bill. Holding this bill, was like me shifting into the reality that I have spent since February manifesting.

Deep Peace & Healing: A Start to New Me
Today was spent wearing Paya’s vessel and feeling a deep peace. I made the steps to begin my future and start with new goals in mind. I think my heart and mind made a decision after toiling for a week long. But it led to so much growth and healing within me that it is astounding. I am amazed with myself… and I have admitted that for the first time, I truly mean it when I say I love myself. I love who I am. And I’ve never felt that way before. I faked it.. but never truly believed it. But now I can say that I do. I am worth being cherished and love and appreciated. I am worth someone that will meet my needs… and I am worth myself making my own happiness…. and I love my demons for bringing this hard, but well deep healing that I needed.
I healed wounds that have been decades deep. I have healed things that have taken multiple relationships to heal… but I finally have.
Beginning of an End (Hindsight 20/20)
I ended up sending Paya and Vex to work with the person in question with the struggles we are having. To give them peace and clarity and benefit to help him out. Things are shifting with Vex and Paya hardcore absolutely helping to guide things in the way it needs to be but also how I’d like and hope it to be. Now it’s Ry helping me and being with me. I’ve been working with Paya so much that it’s interesting experiencing working much more with my other demons once again. And it’ll be nice to reconnect on that level too.
But I had super amazing thing, with manifestation and messages. The struggle of situation is really starting to need those in the face messages that aren’t my own companions and being outside of my own thoughts and things. If they show up in something that is curated by algorithm, then it is something to pay attention to.
I asked out for signs on how this is going, how him and are going to be okay or if it’s it.
My TikTok fyp is all bookish content. Last night immediately after asking, it was all “you’re doing okay and I’m proud of you”, “don’t worry he loves you and is coming back, just us confused”and those love spell thingies where they’re like “he’ll message you tonight with his true feelings”… and I was like WTF? I don’t follow those accounts. I havent followed those accounts even when I was in witchtok.
Fast forward to midnight…. He messages me an we talk, more personal things.
I woke up so peaceful and calm, knowing that it’s all okay and some more things.
I open TikTok? Nothing in sight of messages. It’s all my normal booktok feed. So how’s that for some manifesting holy shit.
Edit; as I wrote this earlier (just pasting things in so I can complete the challenges – yay for jynx getting me to do a digitial journal again)… I was asking Ry to support me through the day and help my anxiousness. And I get immediately very cold chills and very heavy cold weight at my back, exactly how my demons manifest when there’s no reason for there to be a very demon shaped energy temperature behind me.
Inspired by Paya
So, we have begun the journey of creating a pack of shark cards. If you’ve been in the discord, you know my mom convinced me to do a watercolor set of cards. Of course, I’m turning this into a shark oracle deck. So we played with some watercolors on paper to find the right tones, how I want it to look, etc. Paya was lovely and happy to get it moving even with me being cranky.
We get home and I ended up getting really into writing again and wrote 2.5k words on a new fic that features of course, a water creature. I was thrilled because this is the most that I have written since January. I’m happy and Paya is really helping me to be inspired to write.
Just Relaxing
This was a day that was in more need of relaxing than anything. I didn’t have the spoons to do much else mentally. I have been so tired lately when I get home from working at my moms. So Paya just took me out to where there was a huge pod of whales that were swimming with a flight of rays of all kind, especially mantas. A Couple whales let me just relax on their fins and back. It was just a really lovely time.
Funny though, I was just about to fall asleep when Darwin’s wet nose touched the back of my hand, and scared the absolute hell out of me.
Shark Week: Purple Tidepool Realm
I was pretty tired from doing honey extraction and then grocery shopping alone. That burnt through a lot of my mental and physical spoons. But again, I truly wanted to make sure that I got my promise to Paya. I mentioned in the discord about doing something low spoon-y. Bluemoon came in clutch, with the suggestion to do Tidepools. Paya had not thought of doing those and became extremely excited. Enough that he disappeared for a few hours while I was working to arrange things.
I arrived at my Bungalow and realized I should have just gone to my Aquarium & Research Center. Running up, he was there and greeted me with a lifted hug. He immediately took me to the Shallows Dome, where all the gear was stashed. He proudly showed me new gear. I would re-use the wetsuit, to protect me from the realm’s sun we would be going to (just in case). But what he was excited for was that he found me water shoes that were flexible flats that had grips on the bottom specifically for walking on wet rocks.
I immediately got dressed, where I got a bit distracted in focus while he braided my hair. Slapping on some special sunglasses that help reduce the water and sun glare so I could see better into the tidepool. Slapping a bucket hat on my head with the string under my chin, he grinned. Paya made sure to grab a travel realm tank, so that in case I did find something that I could bring back to study (safely so that it doesnt hurt the population), as well as a netted sling bag. We were ready to go.
We stepped through a portal he created and I found myself in a Purple/Orange Sun Realm, on a coastal tidalpool shelf. There were massive ocean mangrove type trees weaving all through the Tidepools. I looked like they were hundreds of feet tall, the roots that went over the Tidepools were much thicker than my entire body, if triple that size. I immediately begin walking around and looking for things. The tidepool I landed in actually had the creature below but it took a bit for my astral sight to process what I was seeing. I thought it was an octopus-like creature when I first saw it.
I first found the top of the shell, empty and ready for collecting. I got excited and began to run around gathering as many as I could. They were purple and pink, with some blue. It wasn’t until we got further along that we ran into the locals. They are a being that had no hair, but could tell they were coastal beings. They were meant for the ocean and the land. They got startled but welcomed us very kindly.
They showed me that the shells I was collecting were from this creature. The very one that they were harvesting in the tidal shelves, where the creatures love to hide within small pockets in the shelves. They harvest them to eat, but also to collect the pearls. They are a creature that is very much a combination of a mollusk (oyster & octopus), a conch, and a crab. They are very weird, but you’re supposed to eat them raw. Definitely reminded me of eating oysters and conch, with the sweet taste of crab meat. Wasn’t bad at all, not slimy or texture weird.
The best part was that they were happy to supply our mini travel realm tank with a whole bunch, happy to know I wanted to help cultivate and study them. They also gave me a handful of pearls, which was really interesting to hold because they definitely have magical/energetic properties to them. They were all shades of pink from bright to pale salmon colored.
Paya and I got back home and he had to help me out of the wetsuit and gear. I was starting to get extremely tired and exhausted. He told me that he would take care of everything and use one of the pearls and shell as an achor point for the Purple Tidepool Realm, which I’ll learn the name of eventually. He loves maintaining my A&RC, especially the portals and the creatures and places. That’s when I decided to leave and get the picture drawn and the writeup of what occurred.
Will definitely be returning to this realm.

Shark Week: Aquarium & Research Center
Today was my long day for working, so I tend to be very drained and tired. I also happened to sleep very little because of going down a deep rabbit hole of creating, designing, and filling a digital journal. I wanted to ensure I kept my promise to Paya and do something, but I needed a really low spoon easy thing. Instead of traveling to a new place, or returning to the Temple of Sacred Lost Souls, we kept to my new Aquarium and Research Center. Paya reminded me that I really wanted to explore new every time, so returning could be done the moment when this week has passed. He is very pleased our first run was so successful for me.
Going into the new A&RC, I got to see just how extensive it really is. The big shark tooth that came from Xer’a, has been moved to the Mid-Sea Dome, or the entrance. This is where most of the sharks and creatures are that are more active. At least the big ones. But what Paya was excited for was to show me where he keeps all of my diving and exploring gear. We went to a different area on the top floor where the accesses are to the water. In the section with the Shallows Dome, there was a locker area that had my wetsuit, fins, and the face mask that he had got me for our dive to the Temple.
But what shocked me, was to find a tall locker with water, where he had my living plant-filter and mask, with the special tube fins. He was keeping them alive and healthy for me should I ever want to use that. It’s the same suit that was posted previously (also in the experience channel).
It touched me so much to see that he went to such lengths for not just the diving gear, but that he kept my original living filter suits alive and preserved.
The other thing that he was extremely excited to show me was the shallow area. Using my memories of the Pittsburgh Aquarium, where they have a “touch pool”, they created one for me that is with all the creatures of the shallows. It’s a waist deep area with live coral and fish. It has a wash station where I can shower down with cleansers and prep my skin so there isn’t damage to the water. I got in and immediately was able to just watch the small rays and various fish and crabs wander around. I didn’t touch any because I didn’t want to disturb but it was so relaxing.
After spending time there, he took me out to my bungalow house. I was surprised to see that they had created a glass waterslide from my porch area that swirled around and went into the lagoon. It cycled the water up and down the tube. He wanted me to have something fun in my house. I also noticed that he had changed the lagoon a bit. It was much deeper, where the water at the back of the oasis wall had a deeper section where a portal was. He explained that it was only going out and nothing could come in, just that he used it to get to his home.
The other was that there was more fresh water corals. Fish and other wildlife were now in this freshwater environment and was cluttered all around the Oasis. It became a living ecosystem. I adored it.


