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Connection Challenge: Day 2

I went to the library to really start working on things. The energies have been opening back up and Im starting to notice my mental health and how Im functioning turn. It’s still really rough because Im dealing with a lot of therapy and shadow work and it’s created a very heavy environment in my spiritual and mental health. So I have been working to get, do more self care, and try to open up so Im not dragged back in.

I really dove into impulse a bit on thursday and bought desk calendars and to do pads. I worked really well with them a few years ago. But I listen to my instincts and the demons and got them. Today I went to the library to sit down and create a schedule that balances my personal life and my working life. Create a healthier flow. It worked really well and I felt better.

I’ve been working to try to integrate the demonic energies and my demon’s input into my life more and more. Especially since I’ve been struggling with the therapy and the mental health.

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Side Quest: Recalling Unique Astral Experiences

On the Side Quest… Unique Astral Experiences!

Okay so the side quest for the week was to think about unique or weird astral experiences that we have had or something that you do regularly. Akelta talked about how she sits on Saturn’s rings a lot.

I had to think about it, because I tend to wander and just do things. I think for me, in thinking about astral experiences, that it’s not so much what I do there, but how I remember. I tend to love connecting with places. In my old astral space (before the Paimon gifted realm), I used to build portal doors to places I’ve visited. So I got into the habit of collecting pieces of the worlds/realms that I visited. Something that means something. That’s usually how I remember my places and experiences is bringing a piece of that back with me somehow. Of course I usually ask permission before doing so, it’s only polite.

There’s so many things I can think of to talk about but I think it’s more of how it impacts my perspective. How I want to continue interacting, what I am learning from it. There’s a fair few places that were random travels that I ended up going back because of the learning potential. I’m thinking of Grandma Tsülie and the Necrosis Cannibalism forest. She always has something to teach me about bones.

Actually thinking on that. The other day she had mentioned about working with bones and with listening to them speak. Hearing their messages. She posed a question to me: Have I listened to my own bones? They are a part of me, but have I listened to them to hear what they have to say.

Honestly, I’ve never thought of communication or working with bones that are still apart of the living. It was quite an interesting perspective shift.

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Connection Challenge: Day 1

Today has started with a migraine that made it hard to move and feeling extremely mentally down… but a shower, some good chicken rice soup (homemade), and a trip to the library made all the difference. I’ve been sitting here working and feeling focus. Had to laugh cause my demons are a bit more prominent in their energies. I accidentally flung Paya’s vessel off the counter with my hairbrush. They make it easier on days when it’s a struggle.

But it’s very nice to feel in touch, even being sick physically and struggling emotionally. But I think whatever it was that was causing the backup released. We were able to switch to another alter finally (It’s me, I’m the alter fronting now – Serena). It’s made a huge impact on returning to more normalcy energy, spiritually, and even mentally. Getting stuck with one or two at the front that are mentally struggling with the trauma (therapy) has been rough. Needed, But rough. I’ll be working with the demons today to catch up on things spiritually. Posting in the Experiences section when I can.

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Some More Thoughts

It’s interesting in how things circle around. I’ve been working with going back to my roots of my practice. Connecting with my demons. It’s been a rough few years where I was only connecting on the surface. Back when I was fully into my practice, there was so much that I was delving into. Ry wanted me to dive into dark energies of crystals and connecting with plant spirits to receive wisdom. Tal wanted me to create grimoires and journals to write information down. So I went into hand binding to learn how to properly make them. Vex and a few others were so keen on my learning malas to make malas for connection. Belle and Taz of course are my necrosis bone workers so they wanted me to delve deep into Osteomancy and uncover more to it.

But that fell to the side because of so many trauma and issues. I lost the plot somewhere and I was afraid to get back to it. Maybe it’s because I felt shame that I had let it get to me. And then embarrassed to meet them face to face bec I felt that shame. It’s a whole cycle of the mind.

Then, it just all shifted. Those blockages fell away in December and I let go of the shame and embarrassment. It wasn’t easy and I worked with a therapist to help get me back on my feet.

But you know what it’s done? I’m looking at mala beads to start back up making them. I’ve pulled out my palm stones to carry around and connect. This year’s crystal or at least starting is Epidote because demons pushed that one so in face. I’ve started thinking about writing my Osteomancy articles. I’m feeling the flow return.

Blockages are the hardest. Healing is not easy and it’s definitely not linear. But the biggest lesson is that the demons are always there at whatever capacity that I need them. I didn’t need teachers or mentors or those pushing me. I needed companionship and understanding. That’s what they gave me these past years. Now that I am stepping back into my path, they are right here with me.

It’s come full circle of my interests again. Now I’m ready for this New Year to really kick off and dive back to it. Starting with sharing my experiences and things I’m working on.

So now I’m gonna ask you, what is something you’re going back to., reviving, or even starting anew? Something you wanted to attempt? I think I’m going to really begin my astral work again. Revive it and delve deeper.