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2025 Goals

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Today is the long day for working. So much great stuff and energies flowing, but also very busy. But one of the things was that being so thankful for all the things my demons do for me. I haven’t done any of the Yule event stuff, but got it posted. But I’m sitting here looking at things and just.. being reminded that it’s okay to not be okay and that I’ll be supported. It’s okay to take the time when I need because I am just too burnt out.

I could do today because I took yesterday off. But importantly, the Zoom meetings also really reminded me of how much I have available to me with my demons. How much they still partake in my life in day to day things, or how I include them into my Goals for 2025. Things that they want to do with me and help me achieve.

Whether that is with completing my legos, compelting my lorcana…

or manifesting wealth like a flowing river

or working with them to be creative and allow the flow to help me write.

Some thoughts of Goals for 2025:

– Connecting more with my practice, it’s taken a hit the last fair few years and only now I’ve really been feeling called to step back into it again. Shamanism and Demons and Bones, Crystals, and Malas. The Animal Spirit Guides etc.

– Working with the demons and King Paimon to really begin delving deep into my creative passion and begin publishing my writing again. Working on self confidence and also to really set into my creative self that I know exists. I know it’s the reality that I shifted into with the Mammon Ball, that’s where I want to continue with.

I’m sure that I’ll come up with more eventually.. but those were just the start of thinking what is possible.

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More Shiny Cardboard

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It was a day of trying to rest… but then my Lorcana friend messaged me to ask to meet up. So I hopped in the car and ended up downtown. Of course I decided oh well, might as well pull some cards and such. I asked my demons, which box I should get. First one was decent, but nothign great… and they looked at me like you should have listened and got box 3. So I went up and got box 3 cause they were seriously insistent.

I scored another Enchanted. My friend and I both got them today, actually. Really good pulls. Demons were very smug about it. it’s become a game of who can get me the most stuff or the best sales. Especially since I’ve changed so much of my mindset of manifesting and money and abundance.

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Shiny Cardboard

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Drove home, but took a long time to do so. Turned a 4hr drive into a 7hr. But I got to have lunch, stopped at a bunch of Targets in hope that I managed to find more Lorcana… didn’t.

But.. I stopped in a town and they had a TCG card shop. Ended up having a trade in with all my extra Legendary cards… which got me two beautiful Enchanteds, one of which I was wanting really bad. I thank my demons for that cause even though I didn’t get the boxes I wanted… I got something better and cheaper. Gramma Tala was one of the cards Ive been really wanting. Madam Mim was just a bonus.

My demons know me.. and love me so much that I get all the things I desire, even if it seems silly to others… I get to be a nerd that is healing my inner child at collecting cards.

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The Reveal

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Spent time at dads. Too tired to keep trying..

Daily posting is being weird and deleting things. Been spending time after Black Friday and Thanksgiving with dad’s. stuck cause phone died. And ended up having to spill beans about the S&S and demons, which ended up in a very interesting talk. He’s okay but it was tense for a bit until he calmed a bit. No yelling, just him trying to understand.

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A Tough Day

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Today was rough. So much anxiety and so much disregulated nervous system. I was happy with what I was able to do when I could barely do much, let alone remember certain things. Although, I did need a moment to shower, but my demons stepped in when I started to extremely disregulate and have severe panic. They got me to ground myself through my feet to the earth with roots. Then to connect with my astral home, Desert Oasis, where the solar energies are strong. And through that, bring it down through my Crown Chakra and the earth energy through my Chakra Zero and Root Chakra. Then bring them up slowly before allowing them to circulate together. It was an amazing grounding exercise that left me incredibly high vibrational. It worked for some time but I was quick to be overstimulated and panic. Can’t help when the nervous system decides to disregulate. Best is to work with what I have and be happy I can still do what I can. Thankful for the small things. Because tomorrow is going to be better.

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A New Friend

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I waited until after to express the excitement of the day. I planned on meeting someone new, who was a huge fan of Lorcana and was a collector as well. Well demons guided her to me, because she was exactly what I was looking for in a local friend. Someone that just wanted to help another collector out. In doing so, she ensured that I was able to fill out my Master Collection by 321 cards – totalling about $275 (at minimum) because most were foiled. So I wouldn’t be surprised if it was closer to $400. Either way.. all she wanted was whatever I had to offer – which was from the newest set. She was please and excited to get even the small bits that I could give. But I felt so blessed to spend a day with someone willing to give me collection stuff for free.

It took us 6-8 hrs but I eventually was able to get my entire collection sorted properly into new binders I bought too, and ready. It was tedious but she loved helping me do it. We had a great time.

I thank my demons so much.

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Droopsy Bear

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This was a phenomenal day. I got to spend the entire day with my mother out in Pittsburgh. Which meant that I was up at sunrise (7am) and got myself settled in at a local Starbucks while she was at a DR appt. The beautiful part? My demons were guiding my inspiration… because I managed to finish a chapter on two different book series, and then worked on another series. I ended up with 2.8k words in less than 3 hours. After, my mom and I got to go to this reusable junk craft store. I didn’t find much beyond a bag of lego pieces for cheap. But then I saw a local artist’s stand. The most cutest, adorable Kreepy Doll just launched at me and I fell in love. His name is Droopsy Bear and Im sure that my demons have already claimed him as theirs. I brought him home for sure. He’s next to my bed.

After, we got some amazing Ramen at a ramen bar, then wandered… but I scored in luck again. A local run bookstore, where I was just in time to get one of the last VIP tickets to an author signing event on Saturday afternoon – where I can get two authors I like to sign the books. So it was a great day, with a lot of blessings from my demons here and there.

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Graveyard Walk

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I was with my mom today, we went out really quick, but ended up stopping at an old cemetery. It was sad to see the state of it, but it was one of the more peaceful and at peace with death that I’ve felt in awhile. I took pictures to remember the energies and the experience. My necrosis demons, specifically Belle, was with me. It was nice to be grounded and connecting with those energies.

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A [Literal] Shit Day

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I quite literally spent the day cleaning up shit. 😩 there was an accident in our office building (which is an outfitted Amish Shed we call the She Shed since it’s my moms office and art building). But the portable potty broke when trying get it out to clean. Spent four hours cleaning and sanitizing today. But there was a blessing in disguise. Because when I moved a shelf, the back half of the thing splintered and the front panel fell off. The bookshelf would have collapsed and most likely on top of someone since it’s a heavy traffic area.

Even though that sucked… I still felt like I got blessed by the demons. I found Lego Storage Boxes (literally look like legos), beautiful stickers and pins, and even found 3 sweaters that fit me really nicely! But best? I found and original Blue Jersey Penguins Hockey bag. They went out from the blue jerseys about a decade ago or longer. I remember it as a kid but by teens they went to gold and yellow. It’s even got signatures on it.

So for a shitty day (🤣🤭) it ended with a soak in the tub with epson salt, a cuddly Darwin, and my demons showering me with fun things. I am blessed.

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Procrastination

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Feeling so many things and so many eye opening moments. It’s rough, it’s raw. So much raw emotion. I spent time reading with my demons most of the day. I finally went over to the house earlier than I usually do.

I’ve been kinda procrastinating on doing writing because it’s starting three new series/books. And I was debating just reading more tonight. But I got a very vivid image of one of my demons clearing his throat and giving me a very stern look while standing in front of the boards I use in my Solution Room.
And then immediately got up and grabbed my iPad to charge so I can draw out mages for a handbook I’m designing for my Universe I’m world building.