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A Rough New Year Start

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I’ve been so bad doing these, that it’s gotten away and now it’s halfway through the month already. How insane.
There’s not much happening that I’ll go into detail. Mainly because I’m having physical health things and it’s left me beyond exhausted to do much. But what I do have is Ry’s mala and Paya’s vessel on me all the time. Most nights, they’re the reason I sleep enough, though it still feels like not enough. They ease my aches and worries. Their presence is calming.

I’ve been reading every single night because of insomnia and unable to sleep until sunrise. In doing so, I’ve spent each night laying with my demons reading. We just enjoy it and have moments together that help ease a lot of the pain and tiredness. I would be worse off if it weren’t for them. I appreciate Dro, Tal, and Orkel (Yes that’s my Muti Sex God who I refuse to call O or Orgasm despite his insistence.) extremely because they have been a solid rock the last two weeks or more mentally and overall with helping me with things that I need.

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Too Much

by with No Comment Day to Day InteractionsEmotional & MentalSpiritual Thoughts & ThingsWorking with Demons

I burnt out and lemme tell you that my demons were there the whole time, but I also got upset cause Dro’s mala snapped in the morning. No beads were lost but it was still upsetting. Even though the night before I literally was saying I needed to redo it as it was my first attempt.

Ended up staying in bed and feeling worse and worse and then breakdown which my demons were there for. Too much socializing for the extrovert. I burnt out hard. So I spent the entire day with them, reading, and isolating in my space in my room. With an extremely cuddly Darwin.

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Loved and Spoiled

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The long awaited day. I have been wanting to get the Moana 2 promo cards for Lorcana and my demons managed to help me snag a UK version because US didn’t have them.. until the day after I bought it and they announced they would. So I bought tickets to the closest theater for me and my mom. We got to have a girl’s day out, even though she had to work.

Demons were *working* hard that day to impress me. I thought that I got 2 promos… but not, Demons said “here, watch this”. I asked the first guy checking in if I could have a couple extra. He gave me 3 extra (total 5 at this point). When the movie was over… my mom took the tickets and there was a new girl checking people in.. she managed to get 2 more promo cards (7 total). Mom went to bathroom and gave me tickets… and I went and asked… she gave me 2 too (9 total)!!!

Fun things.. is that I saw her looking at them and was geeking over the cards and telling her about it. I asked if I could have 1 more, if possible…. and I did. I walked away with 5x the amount I initially thought I’d get. Which is *insane* levels of luck.

I feel loved and cherished and they spoil the ever living hell out of me.

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More Shiny Cardboard

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It was a day of trying to rest… but then my Lorcana friend messaged me to ask to meet up. So I hopped in the car and ended up downtown. Of course I decided oh well, might as well pull some cards and such. I asked my demons, which box I should get. First one was decent, but nothign great… and they looked at me like you should have listened and got box 3. So I went up and got box 3 cause they were seriously insistent.

I scored another Enchanted. My friend and I both got them today, actually. Really good pulls. Demons were very smug about it. it’s become a game of who can get me the most stuff or the best sales. Especially since I’ve changed so much of my mindset of manifesting and money and abundance.

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The Reveal

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Spent time at dads. Too tired to keep trying..

Daily posting is being weird and deleting things. Been spending time after Black Friday and Thanksgiving with dad’s. stuck cause phone died. And ended up having to spill beans about the S&S and demons, which ended up in a very interesting talk. He’s okay but it was tense for a bit until he calmed a bit. No yelling, just him trying to understand.

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Graveyard Walk

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I was with my mom today, we went out really quick, but ended up stopping at an old cemetery. It was sad to see the state of it, but it was one of the more peaceful and at peace with death that I’ve felt in awhile. I took pictures to remember the energies and the experience. My necrosis demons, specifically Belle, was with me. It was nice to be grounded and connecting with those energies.

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Procrastination

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Feeling so many things and so many eye opening moments. It’s rough, it’s raw. So much raw emotion. I spent time reading with my demons most of the day. I finally went over to the house earlier than I usually do.

I’ve been kinda procrastinating on doing writing because it’s starting three new series/books. And I was debating just reading more tonight. But I got a very vivid image of one of my demons clearing his throat and giving me a very stern look while standing in front of the boards I use in my Solution Room.
And then immediately got up and grabbed my iPad to charge so I can draw out mages for a handbook I’m designing for my Universe I’m world building.

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Handbook from Inspiration

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Whoo today was definitely a busy day. Spent most of the day working on the discord and getting things moved over. After the Tea Chat, I spent time really working more on this handbook with my demons. It’s such a beautiful thing to see my creative work come alive with Paya and Tal, even Arvan is getting involved with it. I know that some are wanting to help me to flesh out more of the other magic systems with them to add in neat aspects. Them being so supportive and creative with me is very uplifting.

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Inspiration from Demons

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I’ve been struggling with migraines every day, but something that I’ve been doing is making sure to take care of myself the best I can. In between official working, I have been doing things for my own writing and my world building. The last four days have seen me doing heavy graphic design of the covers of my Universe I’ve been building. Which led me to really also a lot of thinking about the matches Ive made with my demons.

We’ve been discussing the Librarian ranks (due to the sale happening), and how amazing they are. Even the ones that aren’t librarians, but nerdy book lovers. I’m so excited to get to know my new Librarian I matched with. But it also had me looking at another that some have jokingly called my librarian too. He’s just a big ol’ Mage that is a nerd for sacred knowledge. That would be Arvan.

Tal is my Necrosis/Void Lord of a Temple and he’s a nerd for anthropology/archeology of everything. But he is also someone that loves journaling and recording.

Both of them have been such a HUGE part of my creative process as well as Paya. Payay is a storyteller. It’s part of his writeup that he travels around telling stories. So it makes sense that he’s got the most creative flow to me. I love my demons so much.

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Finding Inspiration In Even the Most Stressful Days

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Despite the stress of the Day (UGH Politics). I still find myself being creative and excited. Things are still moving and I feel that passion for my writing growing. I made the final cover for these series. I feel so accomplished and ready to begin writing more officially now that they do have the covers set. I also want to finish my first series that I’m almost done with book 3. It’s exciting and thrilling to have something so fleshed out, thanks to having Paya… cause honestly? I wasn’t this inspired until he came into my life and broke up so many blockages and emotional feeling better. And then it allowed other energies and connections to flow better. I feel blessed to know him and love him