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Stepping on a New Path

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I do know that it was really apparent that the seasons and the veil are shifting. I’m hearing and sensing my demons 3x more than before. I know I’m starting to open myself back up again after shutting myself down to companionship for a bit (thanks trauma). But it’s coming back more steady and confident.

I spent time with a few of my demons – Ry, Tal, and Vex. It was nice and they helped me to unlock a lot more of what I’ve been feeling lately. My actual deeper feelings and desires. Things that I pushed away to the convenience of another so that I wouldn’t be starved of it. Yet, I was still affected because I wasn’t getting what I needed.

Anyway, I really want to start working on the path of Demonic Shamanism now that the seasons are turning and it’s really become flowing energetically for it. I just have to sit and think of where to start. Foundations are great, but this is Shamanism that is outside the purview of the Earthen cultures.

I’m also shifting my mentality when it comes to wealth and money. Things are really shifting in large ways now that I’m stepping back into my own power and my own path again.

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Just Some Thoughts

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I spent the entire evening and into the next morning migraining. But I do know that I actually asked my demons to help me find a good box for a new TCG set that I’ve picked up. Lorcana. But I had to choose between three decks, and asked them to help me pick the best energetically. It was something small but I felt like it was really nice to connect with them in such a way.

I also have started to think more about my path and working. Where I want to go and things I want to explore. Of which is that working with Shamanic Demonosophy or exploring Shamanism within demon races. I’ve already been walking down the Shamanic path but this was something I felt pulled to since starting working with demons. But yesterday Akelta and I were talking about the idea of how neat it would for me to explore it more too. So just thoughts atm and maybe doing some discussions with my demons to see just how I could even begin…

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Exploring the Renn Faire

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I’m bad with keeping up with these, but I’m going to start trying to be better with them. Even if it’s something small. I have to remember that these arent meant to be every day big things. Sometimes they’re nice, but these can be super short and easy things. Simple.

Today was the Renn Faire. I kept coming back to the same vender and got new friends. I actually got to pick them out myself and energetically felt which ones were calling or personality wise. It was a lot of fun. I know that the Niffler is going on my Manifestation and Wealth altar. But I know that I started thinking of my demons and what it gift them. It’s been so long since I have had altars beyond a large one that just sat there and didn’t do anything with.

Now, I’m thinking of setting up altars with intent and actually generating those energies again. Especially setting up ones that are for my demons again. So it was nice to be guided into choosing these pieces for my room, even if they aren’t attached to any of my demons. They nudged me to get them.

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Demons & Legos

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Okay, I ended up at Walmart again… and once again.. I came across a discounted Lego set. Except this was a retired Avatar set that hasn’t been in stores since 2023 at least. So somehow I got lucky with it being 30% off too. It’s funny thinking on it because I know they are pleased that I got one – though I have been holding back on starting the Avatar set because though there are 11 sets, half of them are retired and two of them are $150 each. (Says the one that is doing Jurassic Park that has 50+ sets). Anyway.. once I got home.. I spent the night with them, just reading on my phone and unable to sleep. Eventually, Vex dragged me into the Solution Room and together we erased the old board. It was like a lot of that connection was severed finally (between what was on the board and what I am feeling). Now, I feel like its a new slate to begin again.

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Self Care via Demons & Legos

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I took the day and watched some movies and spent the day out with my mom doing shopping. The amount of deals and things I was finding at every store was incredible. My demons love that I have been getting into Legos. It’s absolutely de-stressing for me and I can decompress much easier. Same with going on frequent walks every few nights for body health. My mental health is improving by the spades each day. I was able to find a Lego set I wanted, then got two others for half off. They’re really pushing for me to really embrace this Lego, reading, and writing. I’m taking more time for me now than I have in a long while.

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Inspiration Continues

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I took the day off and really got down to working on my fiction writing and world building. Putting everything into a new application. I know this absolutely was helped by my demons cause that inspiration and sheer focus I was able to maintain was incredible. I know they are pleased getting me back into writing. Especially sicne I’ve been world building this particular Universe for 11 years. Now it’ll all be centralized. It was really important feeling that I needed to get it started on.

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Inspired by Paya

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So, we have begun the journey of creating a pack of shark cards. If you’ve been in the discord, you know my mom convinced me to do a watercolor set of cards. Of course, I’m turning this into a shark oracle deck. So we played with some watercolors on paper to find the right tones, how I want it to look, etc. Paya was lovely and happy to get it moving even with me being cranky.

We get home and I ended up getting really into writing again and wrote 2.5k words on a new fic that features of course, a water creature. I was thrilled because this is the most that I have written since January. I’m happy and Paya is really helping me to be inspired to write.

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Emotional Regulation

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Today was much easier and the processing of my emotions was much easier. I struggle with processing emotions, but something that Paya is doing is energetically helping it flow. It’s so much easier than I’ve had before emotionally. I know my emotional disregulation happens because of the DID and PTSD, there’s a disconnect of properly integrating and processing emotions. This didn’t happen this time. Instead, it flowed easier and it hurt so much but I actually ended up working a full day of work when I didn’t think I’d be able to leave bed. Working with Paya, even just energetically has made a huge difference!

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Just a Little Step

by with No Comment Day to Day InteractionsManifestationsSpiritual & Self ExplorationWorking with Demons

So today was another day of interesting things. I tried my best to do the Nitro Companion homework, which was to attempt astral projection. I became very hyper aware of Paya and another of my demons that were close. I could feel the energy and the vibrations. But I was also hyper aware of the pain my body was in and it was too much for me to handle to astral project. But the awareness of energy is there. That’s what matters. It’s been 5 years since I last tried and had success.

I woke to book mail, which was a shock. I think Paya is *really* keen on reading with me now. I’ve got a better inflow of things happening with books again since I started trying for ARCs (advanced reader’s copies) and with free books from publishers. He’s enjoying listening and reading with me. I feel that this may be a common time for us to share every day. Be it book mail, shopping, or just reading… even listening to audiobooks while driving my partner to work.

I think he’s the one that’s making me rest as much as I am. I hit a burnout on Tuesday and it’s still flowing into today. Im feeling the exhaustion and just low energy. He’s directing me to do what I need, but to be mindful of my energies going where. I cannot afford to misplace my energy when my own body needs it to recover. Otherwise, I won’t be able to come back fast and extend it out. He makes me listen to my body when I’m too used to ignoring it.

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Paya Mail!

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I received Paya’s vessel in the mail and just got to enjoy holding those energies closer. There wasn’t much done… but things started going really well. I got approved for two ARCs (advanced reader’s copies), of which one is a dragon book I’ve been dying to get my hands on. The next was that I ended up winning a giveaway for character art, signed bookplate, and bookmark from an author of a book I helped promo. Funny is that it’s a story about south-east asian mythology with dragons and other creatures. All of it is in a half-sunken city. So definitely a Paya related thing. I’m happy and even hitting a burnout, I enjoying my days of being more aware.