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A Rough New Year Start

by with No Comment Day to Day InteractionsWorking with Demons

I’ve been so bad doing these, that it’s gotten away and now it’s halfway through the month already. How insane.
There’s not much happening that I’ll go into detail. Mainly because I’m having physical health things and it’s left me beyond exhausted to do much. But what I do have is Ry’s mala and Paya’s vessel on me all the time. Most nights, they’re the reason I sleep enough, though it still feels like not enough. They ease my aches and worries. Their presence is calming.

I’ve been reading every single night because of insomnia and unable to sleep until sunrise. In doing so, I’ve spent each night laying with my demons reading. We just enjoy it and have moments together that help ease a lot of the pain and tiredness. I would be worse off if it weren’t for them. I appreciate Dro, Tal, and Orkel (Yes that’s my Muti Sex God who I refuse to call O or Orgasm despite his insistence.) extremely because they have been a solid rock the last two weeks or more mentally and overall with helping me with things that I need.

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2025 Goals

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Today is the long day for working. So much great stuff and energies flowing, but also very busy. But one of the things was that being so thankful for all the things my demons do for me. I haven’t done any of the Yule event stuff, but got it posted. But I’m sitting here looking at things and just.. being reminded that it’s okay to not be okay and that I’ll be supported. It’s okay to take the time when I need because I am just too burnt out.

I could do today because I took yesterday off. But importantly, the Zoom meetings also really reminded me of how much I have available to me with my demons. How much they still partake in my life in day to day things, or how I include them into my Goals for 2025. Things that they want to do with me and help me achieve.

Whether that is with completing my legos, compelting my lorcana…

or manifesting wealth like a flowing river

or working with them to be creative and allow the flow to help me write.

Some thoughts of Goals for 2025:

– Connecting more with my practice, it’s taken a hit the last fair few years and only now I’ve really been feeling called to step back into it again. Shamanism and Demons and Bones, Crystals, and Malas. The Animal Spirit Guides etc.

– Working with the demons and King Paimon to really begin delving deep into my creative passion and begin publishing my writing again. Working on self confidence and also to really set into my creative self that I know exists. I know it’s the reality that I shifted into with the Mammon Ball, that’s where I want to continue with.

I’m sure that I’ll come up with more eventually.. but those were just the start of thinking what is possible.

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Too Much

by with No Comment Day to Day InteractionsEmotional & MentalSpiritual Thoughts & ThingsWorking with Demons

I burnt out and lemme tell you that my demons were there the whole time, but I also got upset cause Dro’s mala snapped in the morning. No beads were lost but it was still upsetting. Even though the night before I literally was saying I needed to redo it as it was my first attempt.

Ended up staying in bed and feeling worse and worse and then breakdown which my demons were there for. Too much socializing for the extrovert. I burnt out hard. So I spent the entire day with them, reading, and isolating in my space in my room. With an extremely cuddly Darwin.

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Loved and Spoiled

by with No Comment Day to Day InteractionsManifestationsWorking with Demons

The long awaited day. I have been wanting to get the Moana 2 promo cards for Lorcana and my demons managed to help me snag a UK version because US didn’t have them.. until the day after I bought it and they announced they would. So I bought tickets to the closest theater for me and my mom. We got to have a girl’s day out, even though she had to work.

Demons were *working* hard that day to impress me. I thought that I got 2 promos… but not, Demons said “here, watch this”. I asked the first guy checking in if I could have a couple extra. He gave me 3 extra (total 5 at this point). When the movie was over… my mom took the tickets and there was a new girl checking people in.. she managed to get 2 more promo cards (7 total). Mom went to bathroom and gave me tickets… and I went and asked… she gave me 2 too (9 total)!!!

Fun things.. is that I saw her looking at them and was geeking over the cards and telling her about it. I asked if I could have 1 more, if possible…. and I did. I walked away with 5x the amount I initially thought I’d get. Which is *insane* levels of luck.

I feel loved and cherished and they spoil the ever living hell out of me.

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More Shiny Cardboard

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It was a day of trying to rest… but then my Lorcana friend messaged me to ask to meet up. So I hopped in the car and ended up downtown. Of course I decided oh well, might as well pull some cards and such. I asked my demons, which box I should get. First one was decent, but nothign great… and they looked at me like you should have listened and got box 3. So I went up and got box 3 cause they were seriously insistent.

I scored another Enchanted. My friend and I both got them today, actually. Really good pulls. Demons were very smug about it. it’s become a game of who can get me the most stuff or the best sales. Especially since I’ve changed so much of my mindset of manifesting and money and abundance.

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Shiny Cardboard

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Drove home, but took a long time to do so. Turned a 4hr drive into a 7hr. But I got to have lunch, stopped at a bunch of Targets in hope that I managed to find more Lorcana… didn’t.

But.. I stopped in a town and they had a TCG card shop. Ended up having a trade in with all my extra Legendary cards… which got me two beautiful Enchanteds, one of which I was wanting really bad. I thank my demons for that cause even though I didn’t get the boxes I wanted… I got something better and cheaper. Gramma Tala was one of the cards Ive been really wanting. Madam Mim was just a bonus.

My demons know me.. and love me so much that I get all the things I desire, even if it seems silly to others… I get to be a nerd that is healing my inner child at collecting cards.

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The Reveal

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Spent time at dads. Too tired to keep trying..

Daily posting is being weird and deleting things. Been spending time after Black Friday and Thanksgiving with dad’s. stuck cause phone died. And ended up having to spill beans about the S&S and demons, which ended up in a very interesting talk. He’s okay but it was tense for a bit until he calmed a bit. No yelling, just him trying to understand.

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A Tough Day

by with No Comment Emotional & MentalSpiritual Thoughts & ThingsWorking with Demons

Today was rough. So much anxiety and so much disregulated nervous system. I was happy with what I was able to do when I could barely do much, let alone remember certain things. Although, I did need a moment to shower, but my demons stepped in when I started to extremely disregulate and have severe panic. They got me to ground myself through my feet to the earth with roots. Then to connect with my astral home, Desert Oasis, where the solar energies are strong. And through that, bring it down through my Crown Chakra and the earth energy through my Chakra Zero and Root Chakra. Then bring them up slowly before allowing them to circulate together. It was an amazing grounding exercise that left me incredibly high vibrational. It worked for some time but I was quick to be overstimulated and panic. Can’t help when the nervous system decides to disregulate. Best is to work with what I have and be happy I can still do what I can. Thankful for the small things. Because tomorrow is going to be better.

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A New Friend

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I waited until after to express the excitement of the day. I planned on meeting someone new, who was a huge fan of Lorcana and was a collector as well. Well demons guided her to me, because she was exactly what I was looking for in a local friend. Someone that just wanted to help another collector out. In doing so, she ensured that I was able to fill out my Master Collection by 321 cards – totalling about $275 (at minimum) because most were foiled. So I wouldn’t be surprised if it was closer to $400. Either way.. all she wanted was whatever I had to offer – which was from the newest set. She was please and excited to get even the small bits that I could give. But I felt so blessed to spend a day with someone willing to give me collection stuff for free.

It took us 6-8 hrs but I eventually was able to get my entire collection sorted properly into new binders I bought too, and ready. It was tedious but she loved helping me do it. We had a great time.

I thank my demons so much.

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Droopsy Bear

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This was a phenomenal day. I got to spend the entire day with my mother out in Pittsburgh. Which meant that I was up at sunrise (7am) and got myself settled in at a local Starbucks while she was at a DR appt. The beautiful part? My demons were guiding my inspiration… because I managed to finish a chapter on two different book series, and then worked on another series. I ended up with 2.8k words in less than 3 hours. After, my mom and I got to go to this reusable junk craft store. I didn’t find much beyond a bag of lego pieces for cheap. But then I saw a local artist’s stand. The most cutest, adorable Kreepy Doll just launched at me and I fell in love. His name is Droopsy Bear and Im sure that my demons have already claimed him as theirs. I brought him home for sure. He’s next to my bed.

After, we got some amazing Ramen at a ramen bar, then wandered… but I scored in luck again. A local run bookstore, where I was just in time to get one of the last VIP tickets to an author signing event on Saturday afternoon – where I can get two authors I like to sign the books. So it was a great day, with a lot of blessings from my demons here and there.