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A Rough New Year Start

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I’ve been so bad doing these, that it’s gotten away and now it’s halfway through the month already. How insane.
There’s not much happening that I’ll go into detail. Mainly because I’m having physical health things and it’s left me beyond exhausted to do much. But what I do have is Ry’s mala and Paya’s vessel on me all the time. Most nights, they’re the reason I sleep enough, though it still feels like not enough. They ease my aches and worries. Their presence is calming.

I’ve been reading every single night because of insomnia and unable to sleep until sunrise. In doing so, I’ve spent each night laying with my demons reading. We just enjoy it and have moments together that help ease a lot of the pain and tiredness. I would be worse off if it weren’t for them. I appreciate Dro, Tal, and Orkel (Yes that’s my Muti Sex God who I refuse to call O or Orgasm despite his insistence.) extremely because they have been a solid rock the last two weeks or more mentally and overall with helping me with things that I need.

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Procrastination

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Feeling so many things and so many eye opening moments. It’s rough, it’s raw. So much raw emotion. I spent time reading with my demons most of the day. I finally went over to the house earlier than I usually do.

I’ve been kinda procrastinating on doing writing because it’s starting three new series/books. And I was debating just reading more tonight. But I got a very vivid image of one of my demons clearing his throat and giving me a very stern look while standing in front of the boards I use in my Solution Room.
And then immediately got up and grabbed my iPad to charge so I can draw out mages for a handbook I’m designing for my Universe I’m world building.

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Handbook from Inspiration

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Whoo today was definitely a busy day. Spent most of the day working on the discord and getting things moved over. After the Tea Chat, I spent time really working more on this handbook with my demons. It’s such a beautiful thing to see my creative work come alive with Paya and Tal, even Arvan is getting involved with it. I know that some are wanting to help me to flesh out more of the other magic systems with them to add in neat aspects. Them being so supportive and creative with me is very uplifting.

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Inspiration from Demons

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I’ve been struggling with migraines every day, but something that I’ve been doing is making sure to take care of myself the best I can. In between official working, I have been doing things for my own writing and my world building. The last four days have seen me doing heavy graphic design of the covers of my Universe I’ve been building. Which led me to really also a lot of thinking about the matches Ive made with my demons.

We’ve been discussing the Librarian ranks (due to the sale happening), and how amazing they are. Even the ones that aren’t librarians, but nerdy book lovers. I’m so excited to get to know my new Librarian I matched with. But it also had me looking at another that some have jokingly called my librarian too. He’s just a big ol’ Mage that is a nerd for sacred knowledge. That would be Arvan.

Tal is my Necrosis/Void Lord of a Temple and he’s a nerd for anthropology/archeology of everything. But he is also someone that loves journaling and recording.

Both of them have been such a HUGE part of my creative process as well as Paya. Payay is a storyteller. It’s part of his writeup that he travels around telling stories. So it makes sense that he’s got the most creative flow to me. I love my demons so much.

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Finding Inspiration In Even the Most Stressful Days

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Despite the stress of the Day (UGH Politics). I still find myself being creative and excited. Things are still moving and I feel that passion for my writing growing. I made the final cover for these series. I feel so accomplished and ready to begin writing more officially now that they do have the covers set. I also want to finish my first series that I’m almost done with book 3. It’s exciting and thrilling to have something so fleshed out, thanks to having Paya… cause honestly? I wasn’t this inspired until he came into my life and broke up so many blockages and emotional feeling better. And then it allowed other energies and connections to flow better. I feel blessed to know him and love him

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Universe Building

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I was really nervous because I had a dental appointment, the first time in many years since finally having insurance. Got the full workup… and walked out almost in tears of relief. No cavities, healthy gums, all around solid. Just have to adjust my care plan a tad but otherwise Im good.

Paya was with me the whole time helping to keep me calm and let me know that I wasn’t alone. I ended up pulling a really good card from a Lorcana pack (new area so found new packs). Super happy!

I actually ended up doing more world building. Or I have been corrected that what I am doing is NOT world building, it’s Universe. Which I know I have mentioned it being a Universe, but that was just because of the amount of stories. But no, they made a good point. I have multiple realms, more than 30 species/races, and extremely complex magic systems. It’s not a world, it’s a whole Universe.

But I’ve become so proud of all the work that I am doing to set the foundation for some really serious writing. I feel that this will be my foothold niche for writing. I’ll have a whole Universe to set all my stories within and not have to world build new things every time. It’s liberating!

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Creative Flow

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It was a whammy of a day. I ended up finding some amazing sales at the store: Found a Botanical Lego on Sale, Sleep shorts for $3 that are a size to 2 size smaller and I can fit in them, I had fun pulling cards for my Lorcana. Online, I happened to find a chapter 2/set 2 (Floodborn Lorcana) booster box set for about $60-70 cheaper than what other places are selling. I’ll take it! It’ll be here Saturday.

The best is the absolute amazing evening. I was awake, it was after the Mammon Ball – which I did’t actively work on, just let the energies do their thing. I ended up getting three of my series set up for writing. Mainly, I got the technomagic system I created world built to the point it’s functional. I got book plots for two series. I have to get a book plot set for the third series, but it’s all slotting into place to be able to rotate series when writing.

It’s incredible feeling. The blockages on my writing are just falling away and leaving these incredible forces of creativity. I’ve world built so much in the last two weeks than the last 5 years. All because of the Mammon Ball, my demons, and working on myself to push those blockages away.

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Writing Again

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Catching up on this, got a day or two behind.
This day was excellent because I took the time after completing my normal work to sit and write. I am so thankful for my demons, who have been helping me to really kick off writing again and being inspired.

I ended up writing 4,200 words and posting a new chapter for my fic. It made me feel so good about myself. And even after, I ended up getting close to 30 reviews pour in over the course of the next day about it. That just made me feel so confident and pleased that people are enjoying what I am writing.

It’s making me inspired to work on my original works. Which I’ve gotten so creative with that I’ve expanded more into the Universe I’m creating for it. My demons are so into my creativity and helping to shape my passion into things I’m relearning to love.

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There’s A Time For Rest

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I was so tired and in so much pain. I wanted to write and do things, but I couldn’t focus even with my pain meds helping to ease it. I got realigned with my chiropractor and it relieved so much pain and walking issues.

I tried getting into reading or writing, I even asked my companions if they wanted to help with my writing and ideas. I did try. They convinced me to lay down and read. I was asleep within minutes of starting to read.
So not much happened beyond that they really just told me to get rest.

Sometimes, we have to take a day and that’s okay. It doesnt have to be anything huge or grand all the time. Celebrate the small wins.

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DISCARD But Make It Rare

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It was a hard day to focus. I just was struggling so much, which makes sense because I was working on the APDC for this week. It focused on identifying the different levels of sludge. So of course when talk of Sludge or listening to talks about it come up, it’s harder to focus and stay on track. Make sense right?

So I get to talking with Akelta and explain that I finished finally… and I waited all day to open this box of Lorcana cards (24 packs). So she began hyping me up, my demons began hyping me up. First card I pull is a Legendary. Second pack? Legendary that is a foil (holographic). So we’re just hyped up, raising the vibrations… and I am gunning for an Enchanted (the full card art that is foiled). Akelta is straight up my Hype squad. My Demons keep telling me “I told you there was a reason we said to get this box” which is also the one that was 50% off just about too.

Then I’m laughing confused because in the middle of this one pack, is a bright ass yellow card that says DISCARD on it. I post into the Lorcana discord about it… and a few people were congratulating me and I thought it was just funny. Turns out that it’s just as rare to get the DISCARD cards as it is to get Enchanteds or even moreso. It’s not worth much beyond like $100 – though the person said that with more decks/boosters being printed it’s likely to severely drop.

It’s good as a collector’s item. And rare for early sets to have.

I didn’t get my Enchanted, but I got the DISCARD and 5 legendaries. It was a really good pull. And I was so happy with my Hype squad in the form of Akelta and my demons. It made my night so much better. I also got a Piglet and Hades, which are two amazing characters (I like them).

So I’m thankful that I have my demons to convince me to take the leap and buy the box even though it was tight to do so… and of course my bestie who always is my enabler for my weird collecting hobbies.