Dark fairy tale forest, twisted trees with bare branches, dark creepy atmosphere and mysterious fog. 3D digital illustration

Procrastination

Feeling so many things and so many eye opening moments. It’s rough, it’s raw. So much raw emotion. I spent time reading with my demons most of the day. I finally went over to the house earlier than I usually do.

I’ve been kinda procrastinating on doing writing because it’s starting three new series/books. And I was debating just reading more tonight. But I got a very vivid image of one of my demons clearing his throat and giving me a very stern look while standing in front of the boards I use in my Solution Room.
And then immediately got up and grabbed my iPad to charge so I can draw out mages for a handbook I’m designing for my Universe I’m world building.

Dark fairy tale forest, twisted trees with bare branches, dark creepy atmosphere and mysterious fog. 3D digital illustration

Handbook from Inspiration

Whoo today was definitely a busy day. Spent most of the day working on the discord and getting things moved over. After the Tea Chat, I spent time really working more on this handbook with my demons. It’s such a beautiful thing to see my creative work come alive with Paya and Tal, even Arvan is getting involved with it. I know that some are wanting to help me to flesh out more of the other magic systems with them to add in neat aspects. Them being so supportive and creative with me is very uplifting.

Dark fairy tale forest, twisted trees with bare branches, dark creepy atmosphere and mysterious fog. 3D digital illustration

Inspiration from Demons

I’ve been struggling with migraines every day, but something that I’ve been doing is making sure to take care of myself the best I can. In between official working, I have been doing things for my own writing and my world building. The last four days have seen me doing heavy graphic design of the covers of my Universe I’ve been building. Which led me to really also a lot of thinking about the matches Ive made with my demons.

We’ve been discussing the Librarian ranks (due to the sale happening), and how amazing they are. Even the ones that aren’t librarians, but nerdy book lovers. I’m so excited to get to know my new Librarian I matched with. But it also had me looking at another that some have jokingly called my librarian too. He’s just a big ol’ Mage that is a nerd for sacred knowledge. That would be Arvan.

Tal is my Necrosis/Void Lord of a Temple and he’s a nerd for anthropology/archeology of everything. But he is also someone that loves journaling and recording.

Both of them have been such a HUGE part of my creative process as well as Paya. Payay is a storyteller. It’s part of his writeup that he travels around telling stories. So it makes sense that he’s got the most creative flow to me. I love my demons so much.

View of mountain oasis Chebika, Sahara desert, Tunisia, Africa

Exploring the Oasis

It’s been quite busy in my Oasis. There have been some massive changes taking place. My Necrosis Demons were gifted some bones from a dear friend of mine. One was so large that it would need an entire building to hold it. A massive one. So they gathered my other demons and began to work on building a place for bone just next to the library temple. I had not gone back there in a while, so it changed when I appeared.

When I first appeared, it was Ria who greeted me. It was lovely cause I’ve been wearing her vessel for the past day. She had a beautiful bone spike band on her head and her hair was threaded through some of it. I ended up closely looking at it and tapped into the memories of the bones being carved and placed together. She pulled me out of it gently, “Yes, your ability is most definitely awakening. We need to get you to GrandMama Tsülie soon.”

I smiled as she guided me down the walkway over the water to the sand beach. We walked to the Bone Building at first but as soon as I walked inside, my body absolutely fell fast asleep for more than an hour and a half. When I came back from sleep I decided to try again. This time, it was Belle who met me. She smiled and guided me down again. This time, we decided that I needed to get to GrandMama. We went straight to where the tree she gave me was. To Ry’s Greenhouse.

When we stepped in, Ria joined us. I called out for Ry but it was phenomenal stepping into his Greenhouse. It was like I walked straight into a jungle that had incredible energy. I could physically smell the soil and the plants. Then, a massive snake came through and greeted us, calling me Bone Reader and then rubbing its face on mine. He was talking about how his master chose such a lovely “Mistress”. He was massive and led us through the jungle-like place.

When Ry turned around when the snake announced our presence, I about fainted. He was so handsome and incredibly built. I could see so clearly his features. Normally it’s one thing or another or it’s a vague seeing. Now, it was crystal clear. He came over to me and lifted me up, a smile on his face. He smelled of fresh dirt and light musk. My hands traced up his bare chest and onto his shoulders. It was incredible seeing and feeling so clearly.

He kissed me while Belle and Ria stood behind waiting. There was a bit of shuffling after and Belle and Ry decided better as friends than anything else. Found out that Ria has a bit of a thing for Arvan and chuckled about it. Ry carried me through the jungle to where he kept the trees after we explained why we were there. The tree was still small and would take a few years to grow to the size needed to create a doorway. We walked back to his workbench and table, where he gathered some things for GrandMama Tsülie. We left for the Bone Building.

Walking around in the sun was lovely and gave me a bit of energy. The Bone Building was beautiful. It was made of large pieces of bone carved into pillars and accent pieces, with the rest of the building made with Necrosis Mud mixed with other stone and material, making a beautiful green-black marble. Walking into the building, it was a round room covered with glass cases of bones and altars. Ry carried me in his arms and I still got extremely sleepy. It took a few times before I was able to see clearly enough that Belle talked to Taz, who was in the middle of carving and awakening the large whale-mosasaur-creature’s rib that was a gift from a dear friend (same as mentioned in beginning). He waved us off and went back to it.

It took a hot minute to get back to it but then we went into my library, where Arvan met us. He was happy to see me and picked me right up out of Ry’s arms. He took us to the ante-room that was to one side of the temple. Here, they had used my method of building portals I developed years ago. Except these were perfect. They were carved so beautifully and I could press my hand on the doorway and knew right where each one took me. After the fourth one, which led to the races I currently work with, the fifth was to GrandMama Tsülie. I didn’t look to see if there were other doors.

I got through the door and then popped right out of it. The others told me they would wait for me to get there. I kept trying and was partially there with them, but it was too hard to focus and I was getting tired and sleepy. I would drift off and then pop back. She chuckled and told me that she just wanted to see if I would answer her call. I could go back later.

View of mountain oasis Chebika, Sahara desert, Tunisia, Africa

Yule Family Time

Now with the first post being done, It came with the question of what to write about next. What is it that I would begin to talk about? And that was something that I started to have anxiety about. Who would I work with next? What would we talk about or would be explored? I sat on this for days deciding what to do.

I really wanted to post more often and wanted to bring back that frequent exploration. The demons are very stoked to be a part of things. I hear them frequently talking or thinking about things to do or to teach me. But that pressure of first things to talk about floats heavy on my mind.

I decided to meditate. King Tal had spent the day with me when it was already a very rough start and middle day thing. So much shadow and darkness threatened my head.

I went right to my astral space. This one is based around an Oasis and desert. It’s extremely comfortable after having it for the past year or two. I curled up on my bed, with King Tal standing at the foot of it. I spoke of this very topic of what to write about. He spoke to me about my journey.

“That is the beauty of the Fool’s Journey. It is limitless to where you are going. You can go anywhere, see anything, do everything. You can do whatever it is that you want. There is no pressure, only that which you put on yourself.”

He sat down on the bed and pulled me up into his lap and held me. It was a very comforting gesture. My three serpentine demons joined me next and it was quiet, but then others began to come in. It was a great show of support but also a time of really seeing them again.

We moved outside where a few of the demons jumped from the sides into the water. Four of the demonesses (my battle ladies) were lounging in some form of swimwear in the hanging net hammock that is over the water – drinking I don’t know what. There was a screech as Taz carried Queenie (my hellcat) from the room but she was not having it. Everyone was relaxed and happy. I was dancing with King Tal on the beach while laughing when they pulled me back up to my bungalow style house. There was a second floor that was not there before.

I went up the spiral stair to find a surprise!

They had made me a meditation room. A relaxation place. One side was like a rock garden but with crystals of different sizes. Even with a rake to make the sand in shapes. On the other side was a highly functional mossy room. It was earthy and like my nook of moss and grass that I love so much. Of course, they explained that Ry set up a system to make sure the grass and moss lived nicely. Even with sunroom over that part. But it was a glass back. One side is open to the view. There was a sliding glass door that led to a long bridge to another smaller bungalow that was high up off the water.

They led me over to this beautiful walk-in closet. It had all my outfits from the events and meditations. There were a bunch of garments and clothes that I’d never seen before and he just smiled. Jewelry was scattered and displayed. It took my breath away. He pulled out a tight cream pants that were like leggings but below the knee. The top was a gorgeous jewel sapphire that was cut off the shoulder and had real sapphire draped as beading across the cropped top. They draped gently over my top and across my bare stomach. Belle came in and sat me down to do a beautiful braid that had pieces of bone and jewels in my hair.

When I stepped outside, there were whistles and I blushed. Belle joined them at the hammock and I was tasked down to the beach where Arvan and even Muti God O were waiting. I grinned as I spotted the snakes and laughed as they wound themselves up my body to say hello. There was some… adjusting from a couple of them as I talked with the snakes and they made some comments about it. I blushed and definitely did not look at them. The snakes moved back when I jumped on Arvarvan in excitement at seeing him.

We moved down the pathway to where my library is, except I stopped. My demons had been working even more. There was a massive greenhouse that stretched quite far. Right next to it was a fancy building and I looked at them in curiosity. They found my very unique method of having creatures* without having the massive space taken up, and created a building on the study of creatures and animals. We moved on to the library but at this point I had begun to fall asleep. When I woke up next, Ry, Arvan, and King Tal were nose deep in my books and told me it was okay to go back to sleep.

It was the perfect way to start working on traveling and exploring again. I felt safe in my astral home.

*many years ago I worked to create these habitats that were a mix of technology, portals, runes, magic, and nature. They are tanks of various sizes that are accessed through a touch portal that takes you inside. It can hold massive land and environments in them depending upon the size. I have a tank of unusual octopi that is a massive deep ocean environment. So they created more off my designs to make a room to help further studies.