I’ve gone nonverbal today. Writing is the only way I can communicate. I’ve forced myself to speak when I went out to treat myself to food and dairy queen. And that was so hard. I was so quiet and the people at the food place was so gentle and kind. She even lowered her voice and made it more soothing when I whispered my order. It’s been so long since I’ve broken down into a nonverbal day. But once I got home, I was able to not talk. I could retreat into that. And it’s one of those times where I wish I could use ASL. I know very little but it would have helped today. But on the other hand, it has made it interesting with communicating with my companions. My mind never shuts up, so I always hear my own voice when thinking things or writing something.
So yesterday there was a lot of chatter around Shark Week that cropped up. It’s me. I’m the one geeking over it. It led to conversations about doing a week long challenge (in July’s connection) where I would do nothing but explore the Abyssal Oceans and other places with my Abyssal Deep One, Paya. But I mentioned this in the discord and it was really well received. We ended up talking about all the different types of sharks. Of which the most interest was over the Solar Sharks – aka the Sand Sharks.
I eventually went searching for a picture that would be the blog picture for this blog.
I found one. It’s by the artist Eastasy on Depositphotos, since I like paying the artists or photographers for their images I use on my blog.
But I think this is such a great representation of the exploration of the Oceans that is ahead.
So sitting here writing this, I can tell that Paya is EXTREMELY excited to begin. “Why wait??”
But I know I have to make sure that I am mentally prepared to do heavy astral work that much. I haven’t done it in that long. But because I am in my nonverbal, he’s taking over the excited talking. Though he is working with my not wanting to talk and instead sending me images and emotions of excited.
Some of the places that he wants to take me –
- Boneyard
- Shipwrecks & Graveyard
- Underwater Reef with many Sharks and Creatures
- Place where there are Crystals? Crystal Reef? Finding different gemstones/crystals
- Race of Bioluminescence Beings/Creatures that live within deep caverns
- He convinced my Solar Sorceress to take us to go see Solar Sharks
- And wherever else we find ourselves. He’s gonna ask more demons and friends about places.
So it’s been nice connecting with him this evening. And making me feel more comfortable that it’s okay I don’t want to be verbal or socialize with other humans.
