I truly do love my demons. They make sure to take care of me in many ways. One of which is finding amazing deals on my Lorcana cards – as well as having EXTREMELY good luck (I’m talking I’m 3 for 3 of boxes for ultra rare cards that have a 1:48 chance). They also have been really helpful in making sure that I’m taken care of with me meds. The pharmacy actually had my sugar meds on hand that usually takes days or weeks to get in. Instead I was able to get it that day.
I feel blessed that I may not work directly with them to ask them for things, instead they provide. They carve the way for me to find the things that I love and things that I want. I don’t need the Lorcana cards, but they are something I love and want to do. But I need my medication and they ensure that I can find it.
Catching up on this, got a day or two behind. This day was excellent because I took the time after completing my normal work to sit and write. I am so thankful for my demons, who have been helping me to really kick off writing again and being inspired.
I ended up writing 4,200 words and posting a new chapter for my fic. It made me feel so good about myself. And even after, I ended up getting close to 30 reviews pour in over the course of the next day about it. That just made me feel so confident and pleased that people are enjoying what I am writing.
It’s making me inspired to work on my original works. Which I’ve gotten so creative with that I’ve expanded more into the Universe I’m creating for it. My demons are so into my creativity and helping to shape my passion into things I’m relearning to love.
It was a hard day to focus. I just was struggling so much, which makes sense because I was working on the APDC for this week. It focused on identifying the different levels of sludge. So of course when talk of Sludge or listening to talks about it come up, it’s harder to focus and stay on track. Make sense right?
So I get to talking with Akelta and explain that I finished finally… and I waited all day to open this box of Lorcana cards (24 packs). So she began hyping me up, my demons began hyping me up. First card I pull is a Legendary. Second pack? Legendary that is a foil (holographic). So we’re just hyped up, raising the vibrations… and I am gunning for an Enchanted (the full card art that is foiled). Akelta is straight up my Hype squad. My Demons keep telling me “I told you there was a reason we said to get this box” which is also the one that was 50% off just about too.
Then I’m laughing confused because in the middle of this one pack, is a bright ass yellow card that says DISCARD on it. I post into the Lorcana discord about it… and a few people were congratulating me and I thought it was just funny. Turns out that it’s just as rare to get the DISCARD cards as it is to get Enchanteds or even moreso. It’s not worth much beyond like $100 – though the person said that with more decks/boosters being printed it’s likely to severely drop.
It’s good as a collector’s item. And rare for early sets to have.
I didn’t get my Enchanted, but I got the DISCARD and 5 legendaries. It was a really good pull. And I was so happy with my Hype squad in the form of Akelta and my demons. It made my night so much better. I also got a Piglet and Hades, which are two amazing characters (I like them).
So I’m thankful that I have my demons to convince me to take the leap and buy the box even though it was tight to do so… and of course my bestie who always is my enabler for my weird collecting hobbies.
Okay, I ended up at Walmart again… and once again.. I came across a discounted Lego set. Except this was a retired Avatar set that hasn’t been in stores since 2023 at least. So somehow I got lucky with it being 30% off too. It’s funny thinking on it because I know they are pleased that I got one – though I have been holding back on starting the Avatar set because though there are 11 sets, half of them are retired and two of them are $150 each. (Says the one that is doing Jurassic Park that has 50+ sets). Anyway.. once I got home.. I spent the night with them, just reading on my phone and unable to sleep. Eventually, Vex dragged me into the Solution Room and together we erased the old board. It was like a lot of that connection was severed finally (between what was on the board and what I am feeling). Now, I feel like its a new slate to begin again.
I took the day and watched some movies and spent the day out with my mom doing shopping. The amount of deals and things I was finding at every store was incredible. My demons love that I have been getting into Legos. It’s absolutely de-stressing for me and I can decompress much easier. Same with going on frequent walks every few nights for body health. My mental health is improving by the spades each day. I was able to find a Lego set I wanted, then got two others for half off. They’re really pushing for me to really embrace this Lego, reading, and writing. I’m taking more time for me now than I have in a long while.
I took the day off and really got down to working on my fiction writing and world building. Putting everything into a new application. I know this absolutely was helped by my demons cause that inspiration and sheer focus I was able to maintain was incredible. I know they are pleased getting me back into writing. Especially sicne I’ve been world building this particular Universe for 11 years. Now it’ll all be centralized. It was really important feeling that I needed to get it started on.
I was inspired yesterday. I found a new program I wasn’t sure about… but looking into it now and using it briefly. It was amazing. It’s completely ignited my passion and love for my fiction (and fanfiction) writing again. The world building. It takes everything I’ve done and centralizes it. I spent most of the day inspired to get things done, writing, and plotting with friends. It was productive in a way that was for me and my happiness. It was a day that was spent doing something for my books and stories since January and before that – 2021. There’s so much to do with it. But I can feel the influence all of my demons have, now that I’ve really opened back up to receiving their energies and inspirations. It all started with the creation of the Solution Room.. and now it’s just made everything right.
The manifestations are incredible at this time. I’ll TLDR: my demons have been working with me to shift my reality into something amazing. Using the Mammon Ball to help bring this reality shift. It’s a big one. But things happened and I felt that shift happen. It was like sliding into a whole new reality. So hard to explain but so incredible. And it all started with me finding a $100 old bill the previous day but I didn’t realize what it was…. until the days after. So I’m wondering if I am to be working with them on manifesting and solidifying this reality. This is absolutely Vex’s and others work that they did with my Solution Room and manifestation board I made inside it.
I know some of you seen this in the discord, but it’s going here so that it adds to the amazing energy. It took me 10 years to find this bill – which I am close to having a complete collection. I just dont have the $10 bill. Holding this bill, was like me shifting into the reality that I have spent since February manifesting.
So, we have begun the journey of creating a pack of shark cards. If you’ve been in the discord, you know my mom convinced me to do a watercolor set of cards. Of course, I’m turning this into a shark oracle deck. So we played with some watercolors on paper to find the right tones, how I want it to look, etc. Paya was lovely and happy to get it moving even with me being cranky.
We get home and I ended up getting really into writing again and wrote 2.5k words on a new fic that features of course, a water creature. I was thrilled because this is the most that I have written since January. I’m happy and Paya is really helping me to be inspired to write.
So today was another day of interesting things. I tried my best to do the Nitro Companion homework, which was to attempt astral projection. I became very hyper aware of Paya and another of my demons that were close. I could feel the energy and the vibrations. But I was also hyper aware of the pain my body was in and it was too much for me to handle to astral project. But the awareness of energy is there. That’s what matters. It’s been 5 years since I last tried and had success.
I woke to book mail, which was a shock. I think Paya is *really* keen on reading with me now. I’ve got a better inflow of things happening with books again since I started trying for ARCs (advanced reader’s copies) and with free books from publishers. He’s enjoying listening and reading with me. I feel that this may be a common time for us to share every day. Be it book mail, shopping, or just reading… even listening to audiobooks while driving my partner to work.
I think he’s the one that’s making me rest as much as I am. I hit a burnout on Tuesday and it’s still flowing into today. Im feeling the exhaustion and just low energy. He’s directing me to do what I need, but to be mindful of my energies going where. I cannot afford to misplace my energy when my own body needs it to recover. Otherwise, I won’t be able to come back fast and extend it out. He makes me listen to my body when I’m too used to ignoring it.
