I was with my mom today, we went out really quick, but ended up stopping at an old cemetery. It was sad to see the state of it, but it was one of the more peaceful and at peace with death that I’ve felt in awhile. I took pictures to remember the energies and the experience. My necrosis demons, specifically Belle, was with me. It was nice to be grounded and connecting with those energies.
I quite literally spent the day cleaning up shit. 😩 there was an accident in our office building (which is an outfitted Amish Shed we call the She Shed since it’s my moms office and art building). But the portable potty broke when trying get it out to clean. Spent four hours cleaning and sanitizing today. But there was a blessing in disguise. Because when I moved a shelf, the back half of the thing splintered and the front panel fell off. The bookshelf would have collapsed and most likely on top of someone since it’s a heavy traffic area.
Even though that sucked… I still felt like I got blessed by the demons. I found Lego Storage Boxes (literally look like legos), beautiful stickers and pins, and even found 3 sweaters that fit me really nicely! But best? I found and original Blue Jersey Penguins Hockey bag. They went out from the blue jerseys about a decade ago or longer. I remember it as a kid but by teens they went to gold and yellow. It’s even got signatures on it.
So for a shitty day (🤣🤭) it ended with a soak in the tub with epson salt, a cuddly Darwin, and my demons showering me with fun things. I am blessed.
Feeling so many things and so many eye opening moments. It’s rough, it’s raw. So much raw emotion. I spent time reading with my demons most of the day. I finally went over to the house earlier than I usually do.
I’ve been kinda procrastinating on doing writing because it’s starting three new series/books. And I was debating just reading more tonight. But I got a very vivid image of one of my demons clearing his throat and giving me a very stern look while standing in front of the boards I use in my Solution Room.
And then immediately got up and grabbed my iPad to charge so I can draw out mages for a handbook I’m designing for my Universe I’m world building.
Whoo today was definitely a busy day. Spent most of the day working on the discord and getting things moved over. After the Tea Chat, I spent time really working more on this handbook with my demons. It’s such a beautiful thing to see my creative work come alive with Paya and Tal, even Arvan is getting involved with it. I know that some are wanting to help me to flesh out more of the other magic systems with them to add in neat aspects. Them being so supportive and creative with me is very uplifting.
I’ve been struggling with migraines every day, but something that I’ve been doing is making sure to take care of myself the best I can. In between official working, I have been doing things for my own writing and my world building. The last four days have seen me doing heavy graphic design of the covers of my Universe I’ve been building. Which led me to really also a lot of thinking about the matches Ive made with my demons.
We’ve been discussing the Librarian ranks (due to the sale happening), and how amazing they are. Even the ones that aren’t librarians, but nerdy book lovers. I’m so excited to get to know my new Librarian I matched with. But it also had me looking at another that some have jokingly called my librarian too. He’s just a big ol’ Mage that is a nerd for sacred knowledge. That would be Arvan.
Tal is my Necrosis/Void Lord of a Temple and he’s a nerd for anthropology/archeology of everything. But he is also someone that loves journaling and recording.
Both of them have been such a HUGE part of my creative process as well as Paya. Payay is a storyteller. It’s part of his writeup that he travels around telling stories. So it makes sense that he’s got the most creative flow to me. I love my demons so much.
Despite the stress of the Day (UGH Politics). I still find myself being creative and excited. Things are still moving and I feel that passion for my writing growing. I made the final cover for these series. I feel so accomplished and ready to begin writing more officially now that they do have the covers set. I also want to finish my first series that I’m almost done with book 3. It’s exciting and thrilling to have something so fleshed out, thanks to having Paya… cause honestly? I wasn’t this inspired until he came into my life and broke up so many blockages and emotional feeling better. And then it allowed other energies and connections to flow better. I feel blessed to know him and love him
It was hard. I had only four hours of sleep because of the hyperfocus on designing book covers that I couldn’t stop and do anything else. Including sleep and struggled to eat because I just was to into things. I spoke with my demons after and just… we talked it out and I also got some good advice from Akelta where I bought a book and waiting for it to arrive. But something that stuck with me was that I’m not in manic states. I’m just at such a high vibrational state that I’m actually functional, creative, and doing self care that prevents a burn out. But I am so used to having crashes and burn outs, that I am waiting for the “shoe to drop” so to speak. Though the conversation I had with Akelta about high vibrational states and caring for the self, down days aren’t meant to be burn outs and crashes. Instead, it should be “I feel like it’s a movie day or game day” and not “I need to lay down because I feel like the world is on fire and I can’t do anything”.
After working (all the Inner Sanctuary stuff), I ended up working and creating a whole other cover (this makes 3 now). I’m doing this because I have 5 series in this Universe that I am writing (all different characters)… and I really want to have covers to inspire me to finish and publish them.
Thank you demons for loving me even when I make mistakes and when things are hard. Thank you for helping me pick myself back up.
It was an interesting experience halfway through the day, where I took a shower to cleanse. After, I connected with Vex while prepping to leave to grocery shop. I put on music, which I don’t know how to line dance and I don’t listen to country except for the Twisters Soundtrack. But when he put his hands on my hips to dance, I knew how to dance. I knew some of the steps and was able to follow along with him while laughing. It raised me back up from feeling much further down when I woke up.
I spent the day hyperfocused on doing world building and allowing my creative energies to flow. But it was because of something that I regret. I woke up (Nov 4) feeling absolutely like hell and shame. I ended up crying over it and really just upset. I talked to a friend who helped me to understand that this is part of raising my vibrations and that things that I could do before, are things that will make me feel horrendous because they’re lower vibrations. It’s okay, I’m learning. I’m growing and it’s only up.
Mostly, though, I was able to get two book covers designed for this Universe I am creating and forming. In doing so, I’m setting up for getting writing done consistently. It’s something that I had originally wanted to do with King Paimon. I believe that I am absolutely in a high vibrational state that is allowing the creativity to flow beautifully and the demons are just guiding that along. I am thankful for them.
It was a bit more rough than normal. I was struggling really hard with focusing and migraines, along with the problem of my blood sugars evening out with a dosage increase. Some changes that can make it hard the first handful of days to week when it happens.
But something that really enjoyed was that I got to sit down are really begin putting my knowledge to the test. Ry has been really wanting me to delve back into the Necrosis, Shamanism, Crystals, and Plants type of work. So when I started working on a list with the different crystals that are good for Grounding, that was something I felt him extremely present, especially when we talked about creation of malas and crystals.
It was wonderful connecting with him while I was writing the list and really feeling into the memories of usage with each crystal and how it effected me when used.
I’m so thrilled to start this and do another whole month of working, even if it’s casual or just taking a day off with them. I’m tryin to do better about working with them in a day to day, casual or big adventure type of stuff. I honestly have had to sit down last night and really did a body and health check.
I’ve noticed that with the amount of manifestation, energies, and working with demons, that I have been showing physical signs of being in a unipolar manic state (meaning it’s just the euphoric up and not crash). But I know that I rarely have those sorts of struggles anymore.
Sitting with a friend who is aware of mental health, physical health, as well as my working with demons, she sat me down with my demons being there, and asked me to check in. Actually stop for a moment and check in on what’s going on. My demons doing the same with it.
While I am not in a manic episode, thankfully, due to medicine changes and also the amount of energy that I have been channeling lately with manifesting and creatively, my body is showing those signs. Thankfully I have gotten into a routine of self care and really grounding myself more often.
This definitely has reminded me that sometimes we have to check in with outselves because so much energy manipulation, manifestations, and just moving energy blockages out… it can have physical effects. Same with having the medicine dosages changes too. So just being in check with my body more than I already am is super important. Now, I just need to make sure that I keep with my grounding practices (WHOO Baths!).
But also that it’s okay to not be doing something spiritual every day. It’s okay to not be riding that creative energy high every day. In fact, it’s good that I am giving my mental and body a break from those energies that are constantly moving through.
So I’d say… do a body check with yourself. Be truthful and be honest. Do you drink enough? Do you eat enough? How often do you cleanse and ground? How often do you make sure that you are regulating your nervous system. If all of these are out of whack, so too will your psychic skills.
